Lately..

Was I having depression? Sigh.. Every little things make me cry.. For this week.. I practically cry myself to sleep every night.. Other than missing him, I just have lots of things to worry about.. I just couldn't get through.. Sigh..

Now is early in the morning.. I got up from my bad decided to do my project.. Then I wanna make sure whether I'm having depression or not.. So I surfed the internet to see and confirm with it.. And I found this:

Signs and symptoms of depression in teens

It's hard to put into words how depression feels, and people experience it differently. There are, however, some common problems and symptoms that teens with depression experience.

You constantly feel irritable, sad, or angry.
Nothing seems fun anymore, and you just don’t see the point of trying.
You feel bad about yourself—worthless, guilty, or just "wrong" in some way
You sleep too much or not enough.
You have frequent, unexplained headaches or other physical problems.
Anything and everything makes you cry.
You’ve gained or lost weight without consciously trying to.
You just can’t concentrate. Your grades may be plummeting because of it.
You feel helpless and hopeless .
You’re thinking about death or suicide. (If this is true, talk to someone right away!)

(http://helpguide.org/mental/depression_teen_teenagers.htm)
Lols.. Almost all of them fit me.. Except two statements... No. 5 and No.7

Sigh.. What should I do? Mum changed her mind lately and dun really allow me to follow Andrea to go to church as she sees that my schedule is getting busier and busier.. What should I do? I told him last night about maybe I'm having depression but he said just don't think too much.. How could I not? I felt like crying again now.. Though my eyes still feel pain after crying last night.. Sigh..