Oh Well..

Sorry for not updating for quite a long time.. Was busy as usual.. Hehe.. Plus my computer was reformat and breakdown.. sob sob..

Holidays have been fun for me especially Christmas is just around the corner..Was planning to bake muffin to give out as Christmas presents but mummy don't allow cause at the meantime I'm still terribly sick.. Few days back, I went to damai beach for an afternoon with friends.. It was fun.. hehe.. and tomorrow will be Christmas Eve and we'll have a party at Grandma's house.. On Chrsitmas, I'll be earning money by hapling out for a Christmas gathering..^^ hehe..

Friends are all away for vacation.. But I most looking forward is 31st December cause we'll have a sleepover at my friend's house.. Um.. Hopefully it does come true..^^ Cant wait to receive my presents for Christmas.. Mum brought me to go shopping and bought a lot of pretty clothes and a pair of blue high heels.. I was thrilled.. Went for medical check up at Tanah Putih and was also busy preparing and to get ready for National Service..

Hopefully I can cope over there cause my body is weak and I hope I won't get sick all the time over there.. Hehe.. That's all.. XD

A Happy Day..

Today is a really really happy day for me.. Hmm.. Went out to watch movie with friends.. ^^ at MBO.. The Princess and the Frog.. Then we go gai gai and walk around..

I'm hooked by this crazy game, Sorority Life.. haha.. I spent quite a lot of time up-leveling.. hehe.. very fun indeed.. hehe..

A lot of friends are going away ler.. sigh.. Tomorrow I'm going for check-up.. then this week have to clean house.. and then go shopping with family liao.. (Yeah!! Didn't I told you that I'ma shopaholic?) hehe..

Mixed Fruit Juice

My feelings are exactly like mixed fruit juice now.. Sweet with different flavours.. Lolx.. Today finally finish exam ler.. We're all enthusiastic.. Haha.. Hmm.. Received my national service letter today... I dunno what to feel but that definitely means that I don't have a way to escape form it.. Sienx.. Nevermind.. Only two and a half month and I'll be back to work and making money.. =)

That's all.. I'm hooked with Sorority Life in Facebbok.. Kinda tired now so I'm crwaling to bed now.. Nights.. Muacks..

Oh ya.. I had a great time today at Lok Thian.. Our class dinner.. Upload photo soon.. hehe..

Inner soul

Anyway, I felt better all these days.. Really happy for myself.. Till the day when it comes, I shall let go.. No worries, I'm a tough girl.. ^^

And hey, guesss what? Chemistry is over today!! Yahoo!!! So happy.. and Jeanne came back from Aussie.. Hehe.. She strolled the school around with May.. I managed to say hello just before I went to toilet with Yu Huan.. Lolx.. Anyway.. Today is a simple and happy day.. I just felt contented..

Thank you Lord.. For today.. Is it meant that I'm gonna lose something then I'll learn to appreciate what You have given me, Lord?

Sorry..

Sorry bloggie.. I might have to abandon you for a while ler.. I don't have the mood to update my life anymore.. But I promised to update you when I felt better yea? Muackx..

Christmas coming soon and Happy Holiday.. XD

Strength

Recently.. life has turned around like a tornado.. Everything changes fast and silently.. Looking back, there are so many things I might regret or might smile at those silly,touching memories because they've become part of my life spices.. They've been sweet too.. Just like Avril said in her song, Innocence, it's so beautiful that makes you wanna cry..

It might be painful.. or perhaps, they are painful till they make you numb and don't know what to feel.. And look up and look around.. feeling admired about people around.. I felt they are really lucky.. =)

If you happen to read this post, please take my advice.. Appreciate those who love you and those you love.. You never know who will leave you someday.. they might be the closest people to you.. And.. love them now.. You'll never know if there're any chances to love them back or not.. Don't leave any regrets in you life..For you only live your life once.. =)

Hope

Pray that no matter what happens, I can accept the outcome and be strong.. Pray that I'd shed a little bit of tears but can still move on with my life.. Pray that all can these would be a pass and everything will start anew then.. Pray that I have the inner strength to face the worst and pray that everything would be just an illusion and the next morning when I wake up, everyhting will be just a dream.. Pray that God will hold my hand to walk through this and let me know that this is part of a life's journey.. Pray that even I fall down this time and hurt myself, I'd still be able to stand up and smile.. And tell myself, nothng is gonna beat me down.. =)

New Interests.. Lolx.. XD

Hmm.. hot and cozy morning.. I was doing research on orchids which needed for my SPM PSV exam.. (art exam, f.y.i.) This weekend ain't going to be easy for me, since I have to cope four subjects while my other friends only cope three subjects.. Sob sob.. oh well, I guess it's useless to talk about his now..

So I found a new interest for myself, accidentally.. I love doing research.. hehe.. and exploring to know more wonderful things about certain things.. Like orchids, they came in various colours and shapes and sizes.. God's creation is indeed amazing..^^ Orchids are nice.. and it reminds me it's my grandpa and grandma's favourite.. =D

Anyway, I found myself getting speechless in front of my blog.. Sometimes my mind just go empty and dunno what to type.. or rather, how to express feelings and thoughts in words.. lolz.. Hmm.. maybe I do not have a rich vocabulary? Maybe.. Just maybe..

Btw, I know it's exam season.. But guess what friends? I'm already on my way busy preparing for National Service, graduation and christmas presents, and those who "demand" for their birthday presents next year.. XD.. No worries, I've already get them undercovered.. hehe.. Bleks..

My destination..

You know what?? My National Service camp is in Kem Juara, Serian.. First batch (phew.. luckily..) I only know a friend of mine, Alex is going to the same camp as me.. Lol.. You know..I dun really feel like going anymore.. Cause.. I rather spend my holiday earning big bucks.. To buy a laptop for myself!!!

Anyway, we all have to gather at Stadium Perpaduan on 3rd January.. I'm gonna leave my home from 3rd January till 14th March.. T.T sob sob.. and then.. SPM results will be out.. and then.. there goes the busy schedule again to apply this and that.. Definitely going to be busy..

Sigh.. Just close my eyes and go for the camp ba.. Don't care ler.. I believe it'll finish pretty fase eh.. Hopefully I do enjoy.. But I'm gonna miss home a lot.. and.. (wink wink**)

Bye-bye Sejarah..

Muackz.. So happy sejarah is totally over now.. Doesn't matter I did well or not, so long as it is over now.. For everybody who thinks sejarah is torturous... =D

Hmm.. still got 9 more subjects to go.. hehe.. Next week got my add maths.. Hopefully I can do well.. =) Tired and restless now...

Jia you!! Hehe..

Nervous Breakdown..

My freinds are complaining that my blog is almost dead because her owner hasn't updated for a long time.. Haha.. It's SPM season!! I sneaked out for a while to update now.. Well, it's been a busy time for me to study , study and study..

Hmm.. this blog is going to be dead for a month i think.. Till I finishes SPM then only can type and update.. Well, glad that my friends paid attention to my bloggie.. Hehe.. I wanted to read some of my friends' blog too but time doesn't allow.. Lolx..

Wish me luck for my upcoming SPM.. Hopefully I can get scholarship and not to burden my parents.. Financial is a big problem now.. Sob sob.. Good Luck everybody.. ^^

XD

Ok ok.. I miss my blog so much..
Can't write much.. If got caught.. I die..
Ciao.. Pia chek now..

Pek Chek!!!

Me..
Very pek chek..
I wanna go somewhere else..
I wanna escape from SPM..
Sob sob..

Got to go now, cann't be caught blogging.. T.T Ciao..

A trip..

Yesterday went up to SMK Sematan.. The school sponsored us the trip and rented two big air-conditioned bus for us.. Our bus got puntured at first but managed to arrive in two hours time..

SMK Sematan is a rural school and I've got to tell you that their facilities are so much better than Kuching High.. Even though Kuching High is a town school. And most of the students there are aborigines, the rural people and they are quite new to technology stuffs especially computer.. But their school is really a good school.. I love their condusive environment to study which are full of trees and all the green green plants.. Very "nature".. hehe..
We presented a song for the SMK Sematan students.. Singing "Seasons in the Sun".. Very funny cause we only practised one day before.. We had obstacle courses and i think most of us enjoyed very much.. haha..

We reached school at around 4 p.m.I wasn't in time to take photo even though I brought my camera along.. =s It was a fun and experienced educational trip.. ^^ Though it's a bit disappointing that we can't go to the Sematan jetty and look at the blue blue sea.. (So breath-taking u know.. T.T I want to take photo.. T.T)

So little time..

I've made myself a countdown calender days ago to SPM. And today is the 37th day.. We still left 36 more days left!! Haizz.. But I'm proud of myself I got study during the holiday.. Hehe.. Thumbs up for myself as an encouragement..

Anyway, dunno why my mind keep thinking of National Service that I"m going soon after SPM. I'm not excited anyway, I'm kinda worried where will I be going.. Hopefully it's near to hometown..

Tomorrow school reopen and more and more test papers will be given back again.. I have three wishes: First, hope that my add maths pass, Second, my chemistry, please pass.. and thirdly, my forecast result can be ok (Hmm.. at least 5 As?) Haha.. hopefully..

Crossing fingers.. ^^

My "lepak" diary..

It was fun to hang out with my buddies.. Our school let us out or go home at around 10 something.. So, we decided to go McDonald to eat cause Felicia wants to mum mum cheeseburger. But then we decided to shop for my slippers first, but end up didn't buy cause was out of my budget.. Then we go Tun Jugah, I tried several nice clothes but doesn't suit me.. Then end up we went to Sarawak Plaza to eat KFC.. hehe.. cause Mc D too expensive ler..


The nice and poetic lantern in Tun Jugah..

Karen and Felcia staring at my camera.. Bleuks..

We're lovers of KFC cheesy wedges..

and we three of us acted like tourists and took pictures with the cats statue.. hahaha..

Rain has washed it..

Yesterday, 6th October 2009 was a meaningful day for my school. It was Earth Breaking Ceremony and the Deputy Prime Minister and Chief Minister even came to our school. It was grand and all the staffs in Kuching High are as busy as bumblebees.. But.. I'm sorry to say that the tormendous rain has canceled the earth breaking ceremony and end up the Deputy Prime Minister only signed the plat.. We DO NOT appear on tv (i mean our school)and if you see the newspaper, you can hardly find any students.. Actually I'm looking whether is there any lucky students who got to appear in the media.. Lols.. Anyway, the photos I can take is really limited cause was busy around so hardly can take pictures..


The beginning of the ceremony when they had their Islam "praying"

When Chief Minister was giving his speech

the VIPs.. Very important people oh..

Rain rain go away, come another day..

Pity our school, the mud flows out and made our canteen a huge mess

Late post

Well.. This is a late post Mooncake Festival.. These are the photos I have taken when I went to Carpenter Street with my family and grandma.. There are lotsa things, lotsa nice things to eat and drink.. but too bad my pockets are empty.. T.T I wanted to buy the candy floss.. But then I thought of other things.. I still need to save money to buy my friends' presents.. So.. hehe.. Save the money up lo..


The chinese Calligraphy..

Crystal beads beaded into bracelets and anklets..

Cute little pets made from beads..

Wanna eat?? It's Thai..

The scene in Carpenter Street..

And I found a lot of photographers, both foreigners and local people.. We all love photography huh? Lol..

Mum's birthday..

Me and mum.. Hehe.. My mum turns a year older ler.. Hope she everyday stay healthy and cheerful.. And thanks mum.. for taking care of this family..

My Diary

Well, it's great to stay in front of my dear computer and typing out my stories. I'm a chemistry-phobia student.. I really really scared chemistry.. For me.. even though I failed add maths several times.. Chemistry is worst than my add maths even though I only failed twice for chemistry. Haix..

Today sitting for Chemistry Paper 1 and 2.. One word to describe: Hopeless.. I don't even know how to answer most of the questions in Paper 2.. Especially the essay part.. T.T After exam, I had a headache and all I wanna do was to sleep well.. and cry out loud.. (Ok, no use crying over spilt milk..) I din cry.. I just sighed.. a lot..

Today at grandma's house, had a small family reunion lunch with uncles and aunties. Grandma cooked some special dishes cause tomorrow would be Monncake Festival.. Time to eat mooncake.. =)Next Monday would be the last day to have my mock.. and have to stay back for art exam.. T.T

Sigh.. Life is like this.. what to do?? (shrug shrug) I just want SPM to be over very very soon cause I don't want to be tortured like that anymore..

I dunno lar..

Hey, I really dunno lar.. During exam still got mood to update my blog.. Lolz.. Actually I online with a purpose.. Hehe.. To watch Taylor Swift's music video for "You belong with me".. Haha.. A good friend introduced to me..

Tomorrow I'll be having Physics paper.. School as usual.. I had my Biology paper already.. (Big Yeah!! u know what, it's kinda torturous..)Anyway, I got no heart to study.. So I guess online is so much better than getting yourself pek chek and lying on bed and want to sleep also cannot sleep..

Mum's birthday today.. Turning 51.. haha.. Happy Birthday, mummy!! Lolz.. Hmm.. Nothing much ler.. Gonna watch my video ler.. Hehe..

Going back to school again... Soon..

In less than 24 hours I'll be back to school again sitting for my second round of mock exam.. Tired.. T.T

Well, today is Sunday and it's kinda hectic.. Cause have to prepare hard for Biology and go for tuition later. Add Maths. Anyway, life as usual. Haha. Just I tend to sleep a lot because of my xxx. Hehe..

Hmm.. Nothing much to say about. Lotsa people's birthday around the corner. So will be busy hunting for presents and going bankrupt. Lol.. Hopefully. My phone credit also running low. Haix.. Money easy come easy go.. Lol..

Bleks.. That's all for now, Ciao.

Blurring

Oh well, it's a fine new morning again.. HOLA out there!!

I had a weird dream. I dreamt that me and my dad are squatting inside jail with my aunt and a cousin. (Huh???) That's exactly what came to my mind when I woke up..)I had no idea what it is all about. And even weirder, me and my cousin talked about our waist size. Then we planned to like we go shopping for jeans for every cousin and ourselves. (== C"mon.. don't question me.. I don't even know what this dream was all about lar..)And so around 7 in the morning. I woke up. Realising myself still covering with my cozy blanket, with my table fan turning on..

I reached next to me(a cupboard)to get my phone. Saw a message.Then later, a friend came over. I was still in my pajamas.(==)Then I quickly smsed back and said wait for a while.. Haven't changed yet..I bet my hair is really messy(long hair ma..)like a bird's nest.. Sorry for the lousy image of myself.. Lol.. Never show myself like that to anyone before.. (=='')

I was blur till actually the gate is open, I still run up to my room to get key,then my friend just move the gate open. (Oh! It's open!Dun need the key huh?)Haha.. I was laughing at myself too when I think of this. I'm so blur.

Anyway,hope today could be a great day ahead.. Plan to steal bone a while. (translate to B.M. please..)Hehe.. Ciao!!

ooh..

Well well, today is Hari Raya third day.. Just came back from visiting.. =D Anyway.. today is quite plain.. Nothing much to do except burrying my head into my Chemistry.. My deadly poor por subject which I have failed in my last exam..

Life as usual.. Nothing much haapening actually.. Hmm.. Oh ya.. Found some nice new songs and just downloaded into my phone (Wheee..) Found David Archuleta's new song (i think) which is so soothing that I kept listening to it repeatedly.. Haha.. The title is - To Be With You. My brother recommended to me.. Hehe..

I re-watch my favouritwe movie Hannah Montana few days ago.. Was laughing my head off and be sympathetic to Miley at the Climax when Travis found out she lied to him.. Sob sob.. But the lobster part is the best.. Haha..

Mum's school reopen tomorrow. But me, I'm going to enjoy my freedom at home.. Haha.. Me alone o chek.. haha.. so long din enjoy this kind of freedom ler.. Yeah!!

That's all.. Ciao!

A while..

I'm freed for 10 days before the second round of my mock exam, which is all about science subjects.. Gonna be torturous.. Lolz..

Anyway, Hari Raya is coming soon.. Hehe.. So do mooncake festival.. I'm so gonna go to Carpenter Street.. Don't care..Hehe..Today kinda tired..

Oh ya, this whole week and last week are defnitely torturous with my nose-blocking, caughing and flu.. T.T tired..even until today..I do take an apple a day, but it doesn't seems to keep the doctor away anyway..Take a lot vitamin Cs and medicine.. All I want now is a break.. Sleep peacefully..

During the Mock, I almost every night got nightmares and had sleepless nights.. The next day is so tired, plus my sickness..T.T sob sob.. Exam not really ok.. But I'm crossing my fingers for Add. Maths..

Hopefully I can enjoy a bit this holiday and study hard (Hmm.. Ya!!)
Wish everyone Selamat Hari Raya..I'm so gonna sabo my dad's colleague punya curry and rendang.. the malays food are definitely delicious.. Guess what? This Sunday I'm going to attend a Malay wedding.. ^^ Blueks.. Ciao.

Right now..

So so so.. Friday is my mock.. Once in a lifetime SPM MOCK!! Two more days.. =.= scary.. I don't know why I suddenly feel like I'm soon going through a major operation..

Okies.. All the best to everyone out there!! Jia You!! Me too me too!! So, I'm going to shut all the other problems out of my life and fully concentrae on my studies.. >.< Hehe.. Soar throat nowadyas.. *Coughing cough cough* Get well soon for me.. ^^ Go Go Go!! I can do it!! With God's amazing grace!!

Hmm..

So, guess its a long long time that I have not switch on my computer. And so my cutie bloggie is left blank too.. Pity you..

Anyway, mock exam is on the 11 September 2009. Then break for one Raya holiday and then continue again.. T.T Pek chek ar.. T.T Ok.. Better not cry.. Haix..

On the way for preparation..In fact, preparing now.. T.T I failed several subjects which I get the shock out of my life. Well, time to pull my socks up again.. I guess after typing I'm going to lay straight on my bed after pia my add mx and chinese today..

Ok, gotta go.. My eyes couldn't stand long ler.. Getting heavier even though the clock only strikes 8:40 p.m. Ciao!

Dot Dot Dot...

It's officially less than 100 days down to SPM.. x.x Haiz.. I'm still fooling around doing nothing except attending seminars and tuitions.. Lol..

Anyway.. It's Friday.. Two more weeks down to Mock.. x.x Teachers are drilling us all with past year papers questions and questions from other states.. Lol.. Reminds me when I was sitting for my PMR.. hehe..

Nothing much to say actually.. My gastric pain come back again.. T.T I don't want to go back to school yet.. One week holiday is too short for me. (Hey, don't get too comfortable for too long!!) Okies.. I'd try to change.. Lord.. I'm praying for your mercy and forgiveness.. I hope You would give me guidance to lead me through my complicated life.. Haiz.. I need not fear where I am going when God is going with me is it? Ok.. I trust you Lord.. I believe in You.. ^^

An. Other. Day.

Today is Monday. Went to Sri Sarjana seminar for physics and chemistry. Boring.. End up chit-chating with my friends. Lol..

Talk about something that I'm hooked about then.. SHOPPING!! Yeah! Went to The Spring to visit the new MBO cinema. Nice.. So much better than the Star Cineplex and the Riverside de.. Plus, for couples, they're lucky!! There are a lot of shops selling couple stuff like couple bears with expensive choxolates and flowers and etc. I love the LOLLIPOP shop cause they sell Hello Kitty stuffs!! Whee... so darn cute.. T.T I want to buy the hairdryer.. sob sob.. anyway, went there with my family and aunt.. The outside cinema is a bit awkward for us cause they were all couples around.. hardly can see any family.. (Yea, we're the odd one out..) My aunt and I went to The Face Shop to try out the nail polish.. I had this pink coulour on my littlest nail and I adore it!! Went to Padini and shop for shoes.. Well, I fall in love with a RM 100+ stylish, trendy high heels.. but end up..haiz. there's a 70% offer for sandals. RM17+ per pair and they're actually quite nice.. But still, after spm only shop ba.. haha..

I love my Saturday night.. It's so carefree.. But last night was a very tiring Sunday night.. cause I half headache and then chat till I sleep.. haha..

T.T I still got 3 more days to go for the seminar.. Don't feel like going anymore ler.. Not fun at all.. I still have 3 more weeks down to my Mock.. I'm dying.. But wait, I need not fear where I am going when Gd is going with me.. If I do my part, God will do his part.. ^^

Aloha..

It's been a long long time that I have not type my blog ler.. and Finally today I got the chance to dance my dingers on the keyboard to write my daily life story..

Last night went to Borneo Convention Centre to join the Destiny '09 Conference by Pastor Kevin from K.L. from City Harvest Church. It was a fun night.. The EBC even invite The Generation Band to perform.. It was a sign of revival.. My teacher keep on reminding me that last year i had choosen revival for our ISCF theme.. So, I really felt God has spoken to me vividly. Leading ISCG is not easy, but by God's grace, I rated myself that God has helped me through to do a good job.. All the glory goes to God.

P. Kevin spoke on Isaiah 60:1 - Arise, shine, for the glory is upon you. God's glory is all over the place. I sang one very nice hymn that has the power enough to make the Holy Spirit flow through me and make me cry. I kept my heart peace and prepare this heart for a time of worship with God. This hymn is How Great Thou Art. I listened to Carrie Underwood's version. Her voice is very poerwful. Last night, one of the performers told us that the greatest instrument that God has made, is not the guitar, not the violin, not the drum or anything.. is our voice.. We are given voice to live to give him praise.

I realised all these days I have made myself in busy-ness.. I never calm down myself and give myself peace.. I lost something down inside my soul.. I'm thirst for something that can't be explained with words.. Then till last night I joined the conference, I finally join a worship service. It felt safe to serve this Almighty God. It felt like home. It's the feeling I've lost. Now I've found it.

It's true that Pastor said that no matter what we want to do for God, STUDY hard first!!! cause to make our dream comes true, we need faith, wisdom and integrity. And every dream starts small, every dream needs one person to be crazy enough to do those unthinkable things. God has told me so much last night through pastor. God is so near to my heart. When I look around, I know something great is going to happen.. soon.. in future.. but we need to keep being faithful. What we sow is what we reap. And don't stay too comfortable for too long..=)

Be tough, k?

If a soul is afraid of dying,
Then it will never learn to survive..

If we are afraid of breaking,
Then we will never learn to dance..

If we are afraid of getting hurt,
Then we will never learn to be strong..

If we are afraid of falling,
Then we will never learn to fly..

If we are afraid of losing,
Then we will never learn to appreciate..

If we are afraid of crying,
Then we will never learn to be happy..

If we are afraid of stormy rain,
Then we will never get to see the sunshine behind..

Lol..

Today is Friday.. Haha.. Anyway, today as usual.. Nothing much to say.. Uncle.. Get well soon oh..

Oh ya, my friends are forming a gang to go down to canteen everyday and chit-chat.. That 15 minutes are so precious.. haha.. Graduating soon.. I feel like I'm so old ler.. lol..

That's all.. Bye bye.. Hehe..

Shopaholic's diary

The shoe paradise is driving me mad.. haha.. Few days back, I was shooping with my friends at Sarawak Plaza.. So there we went into Lea Centre.. WoW!!! High heels everywhere.. and I just felt like screaming.. haha.. too bad.. all are expensive and high class shoes.. =D no money, no talk..

Anyway, Saturday was fun.. It's a nice day for shopping.. And we have Taekwondo annual general meeting.. and other club AGM in the morning.. It's the time when we finally pass the post to the juniors and let them lead.. ^^ Lol.. Hopefully they will do well..

Oopsy.. got to go now.. Haha..

Sighing..

What happened recently is enough to drive me crazy and I'm glad everything is over and putting a fullstop after everything..

Sighing.. Well.. Lots of come and go..But throguh it all, God has really pull me through.. I gave quite a long speech today in ISCF.. and Ms. Law reminded me that I shouldn't focus on my weaknesses anf failures but to look up to God's great love.. ^^ It's true.. When I looked up in the sky.. God's love is across the horizone.. It reminds me that God loves us very much even though that often, we forget about God's unfailing love..

Even though deep inside there's a scar there lying behind the soul, I guess that's one of God's love tattoo on me.. Sometimes it hurts a lot.. but when tears flowing down, u know that God is holding you up no matter what.. Sometimes we need a quiet time for God to think through everything.. Really.. we need it.. Often, we forget to thank God for what we have.. but to blame God for what we fail in and other stuff..

Lord, have I hurt you recently? Speak to me k? ^^

Over..

So these few days my feelings went like a roller-coaster.. haha.. Anyway, let's talk about the prefect dinner on last Saturday.. Oh ya, Last Saturday was really fun!! Morning we had jogathon in school then after we went SHOPPING!!! Whee... to Boulevard.. we went there in a group with two drivers in each car.. so it's like 5 in each car.. haha.. Their driving skill is really stable.. ^^ I bought my first Mascara!!! hahaha..

Dinner was fun.. I went for the salon to style my hair and.. ok lah.. curly. but I prefer the my next-day-hair.. Not that curly but it was wavy.. ^^haha.. So, I really WANT my hair to be longer so that I can perm.. after spm..

Dinner was fun as in the food was ok, not bad, and I'm glad that the Form 4 AJKs are doing great among themselves and hopefully this will continue till next year till the end of their prefect life in Kuching High.. I'm glad that this year Eleen is a good leader and so far we never ever quarel.. ^^ so I hope Yi Ling can do her best to help out the Prefectorial Board.. The game was.. ok.. and the programme was.. ok.. The singing was.. good... some of the songs are nice.. ^^ and overall, I like the gift.. I got a pet to rare now and it was at my bedside.. haha.. Hey, the fish I got really active de lor.. haha..

First day in school as a retired AJK was odd for me.. But somehow I like it.. I felt lighter.. ^^ Umm.. today the road is quite congested with the Sultans coming over to Kuching to atend the Rulers Conference.. Alot are complaining.. and.. haha.. nothing much ler..

There are a list of stuffs to do after SPM.. haha.. I wish I manage to do it.. ^^

I wanna know..

I want to give myself a chance.. to do things I want.. to breakthrough..TO accomplish and reach for my dreams!!

I submitted my art project, Daphne's and Zheng Sen's are so much way better than mine.. When my classmates saw mine, they said it looked like living room.. not TV ROOM.. Fine.. what done is done.. there's no turning back for me..

Got the art competition form.. from Dasein Academy of Art.. So, was planning to join actually.. See first.. Today meeting.. prefectorial board again.. Talking about dinner.. I'm not-so excited anymore.. dunno why.. maybe now I have a lot of things to worry about?

Saturday went for movie.. Harry Potter and the Half-Blood Prince.. I would say it's a very nice movie.. With Ron and Hermoine's love started to bloom.. haha.. they are really cute..

I got consolation prize for my Chinese Essay Writing.. Yeah.. I hurt my thumb.. T.T so.. that's my life.. Haha.. SPM coming soon.. Kinda nervous ler.. Lord.. ^^ I rely on you..

Where?

Hey, just got the application form from my school counselling teacher to apply to go to... Taiwan!! To study la!! My parents allow, especially my mum.. so they say: Apply first, then only see what happen.. Ok!! I'm gonna submit in tomorrow.. (YEAH!!)

Mum and aunt scolded me for not applying the matriculation thingy.. Lol.. ok ok, I'll apply.. Besides, I want to apply for the Teacher Training College too.. Dunno where I might go right? So, I'll apply as many as possible.. Just in case..

Tomorrow have to submit in my art project model ler.. sob sob.. I'll post it soon.. Anyway, my folio is still incomplete.. Nevermind, I'll get it done.. My uncle came back from Singapore, so went out to eat dinner, and today lunch also eat at the same place.. Lol.. Last night was the first time I drank several glasses of wine.. haha.. then at night cannot sleep cause too hot.. haha..

Study for Bab 4 sejarah.. cause tomorrow got short test.. I'm busy recently.. but feel very contented.. anyway, mum didn't say anything when I told her I want to go for hairdo.. yeah!!

I'm very happy recently.. Lord, how long will this happiness going to stay with me?

Thoughts..

A lot of things happened.. the Form 4s are having conflicts and we the form 5 are like : Haiz... Dunno how to help..

Anyway, I found out that I think a lot when I walked alone home back from school.. Hope I don't fall down again.. Lol.. Think about what had happened, what's about my life, how's school, how's everyone.. lol.. or sometimes I would walked home with my classmates..

Prefect dinner on the 25th July.. Gonna wear pretty pretty.. keke.. last year liao, don't care.. going for hair make-over too.. haven ask about the price... wakaka.. Nevermind, kinda excited.. wheeee!!!

Life is finally back on track.. everything is back to normal ler.. I'm so happy!!! But, I don't know how long this happiness can stay with me.. I know I wouldn't have it for a long time.. Nevermind, just enjoy it.. Love God!! keke..

Verse for today..

"So do not fear, for I am with you. Do not be dismayed, for I am your God. I will strengthen you and help you. I'll uphold you with my righteous right hand." - Isaiah 41:40

Glad that I found such a great God.. God reigns!!

Once again, I need not fear where I am going when God is going with me..

My Dream

Last night, my art teacher revealed to me the wonders of a person's dream.. I asked her a lot of questions.. and also the same time, I kept on questioning myself whether I am ready or not for everything that is on its way coming. Dreams.. some people need them so that they can continue to breathe through their life.. It's the only thing they can cling on to survive.. the sole reason for them to find the meaning of life..

My fashion design dream.. my parents weren't that approve all this while.. So I'm like, am I really ready to fly? Really ready to prepare myself before it, to spread my wings to pursue it no matter what are the consequences? Can I go through it till the end?? Would God support my dream? Lotsa questions that need to find the answers alone..

Suddenly, all I feel is the emptiness inside with curiosity about future.. RM60,000 to study my Bachelor degree in Fashion Design.. is that expensive? I'm aiming for Raffles College in KL, and would it be safe to live alone outside? I'm independent so I'm not that afraid.. and I'm quite looking forward to go to Taiwan too.. Hearing how my teacher's son has study well in Taiwan has given me the confidence that my dream is not that far away anymore..

"If you have the dream and an aim for life, don't be afraid, just go for it with courage. Even if you face problems when pursuing your dreams, solve each one at a time and you'll manage to succeed.. Don't give up your dream.." - that was what my teacher told me last night in tuition..

I need not fear where I am going when God is going with me.. I shouldn't give up because that's my dream..

=)

Oh gosh, almost started crying.. wish that I can go to National service sooner so that I got the chance to go to church every Sunday and fellowship with God!!!! Lord, I'm coming!!!

I thought it was..

Oh.. it used to be.. something happened lately, and God has touched my heart deeply.. Today ISCF finished earlier and so Ms. Law shared about salvation.. She managed to lead three girls to accept Christ which is.. Hallelujah!!!! Haha.. thank you so much Lord!!!

Anyway, after the meeting, I cried.. I told Ms. Law to keep on reminding me that God is good all the time.. So that I'd remember him.. He puts in lots of things in my life.. It seems hard.. but I remembered that I need not fear where I am going when God is going with me.. I need not worry cause I know I have this treasure.. which is God.. I told Ms. Law that I left out God a lot and I know He must have been very sad because I know in every part of my life, He wants to help me in everything.. But I seldom give him chances.. I always do things on my own.. I hardly ask help.. I'm used to the life where I go on my own.. I just dunno how to re-rely on God.. All I know is that is the first time me and teacher cried.. Yeah, God is faithful and good.. the ultimate BESTEST friend and God..

Something major happened too.. something that can strike part of my life.. I told myself that I would not let God down and myself down..I would never do things that would make myself regret.. Even if so, I told God I'd be strong cause in every part of my life, God never stop teaching and I want to learn God's way.. I want to change.. so many times I hurt myself and I keep lying that I'm ok.. reminds me on How our mighty Saviour nailed on the cross and was sleashed by the Roman soldiers even Jesus is not guilty.. He was carrying the whole worlds pain.. So I want to keep that in mind that whatever I'm facing is just a small deal compared to what Jesus has gone through to save us.. It would be a remarkable scar and that scar will always remind me that God cares for me and He struggles to hold me back and not lead me to danger and not allow me to get hurt.. I know God cares a lot for me.. more than i thought..

So.. whatever I am going through, even though it's painful or hard and at times I'd be giving up.. or having the urge to do something stupid.. I will always hold God with me and want to remember that God is always always always always there for me.. and I need not fear at all.. =D

Abolished it? NOOOOO.........

Ok, so the major news for students today are -- Maths and Science are going to be changed back to Bahasa Malaysia!!! I strongly objected!!!

Let's see, I considered myself lucky enough to be English-educated in my science subjects all these years.. but.. think about it, would it be really good and is it a wise decision to make that change?? Have they really truly consider enough?? Have they care about the teacher's feelings?? Or have they ask school teacher's opinion??? Cause clearly, it's not the government who teaches, it's the school teachers!!! Haiz..

I know what the government is trying to do is for our own good.. You know, Malaysia's English is not that good as the others, unlike Japan or Thailand.. Maybe we should learn form the Singapore? Lol.. there's something I would like to voice out.. think about it, if we were to learn Maths and Science in BM, then what if we were to pursue our studies in overseas? or when we go to Form Six? It would be hard for us.. and I guess the teachers will have a hard time dealing with the student's weakness.. Besides, how many institution uses BM medium to teach maths and science?? Now, Malaysia ask for compulsory pass in English, then why not we use more English in teaching?? "Melentur buluh biarlah dari rebungnya" mar..

Ok.. I hope and pray for miracle to happen someday that things will get back to normal.. pity my brother who is now in Form 1.. Hopefully he wun have to go through the torture.. If I were to help him someday in his studies, I would be having headache too.. Lol.. Change back to English please.. Why make everyone's life difficult?? weird..

Funny..

I remembered I lost my pencil case and the first thing I'm worried most is my house key and my pendrive.. Now guess what happen today??

My family were locked inside our own house.. They lock jammed!! So, mum and I went out using back gate and we have to turn a big round to reach our car porch.. End up, we changed the house keys.. Yeah!! Praise God!! (oopsy..) Anyway, someone will give me a free pendrive soon.. so, I don't have to worrry about anything ler.. but still, I like my old pencil case better..

I almost finish my art project.. Yeah!! and starting this week, I'm going to k-study!! yahooo!! Anyway, I learnt a lot from these things.. Things change a lot, sometimes it depends on us whether we see it can be a good thing or a bad thing.. Even though I learnt to appreciate more, there are still feelings for the past that part of me wasn't ready to let go yet.. ^^

I dunno how to title this..

Another day comes by.. dark.. with no sunlight.. everything seems so different.. everything changes.. you get hurt, cried.. till once again.. you feel like nothing left to give away.. not even your own tears.. a loser? I'm not sure.. sometimes things happen so suddenly that it ache so much.. Could I bear it any longer.. how long... I had no idea..

I was visualising something.. woke up in a room.. by a countryside.. it's late evening.. sunset is here.. pulling the surtain and saw some cows.. it's almost night.. feels like as if I have escaped to this little town after something major happened.. Sad inside.. Can't use words to describe.. lonely.. no one there.. miserable faces.. On your own surviving in a foreign land.. Everything is so different..

You wanna hold.. but there's nothing for you to hold..You wanna grab something tight.. but you lose it even faster.. At times I'd prefer to be invisible.. like when my friend called me to talk: I felt so hurt... very very very hurt.. Can you describe the hurt feeling using words?

It's the best I've got..

A lot of things happened this few days.. I'm tired and I cried till there's no more tears left.. I wish someone was here with me to cheer me up and give me a hug.. I really needed that, I guess..

The best I've got for myself.. is to be the one I should be.. I was deeply hurt and I dunno how to go on.. Suddenly I felt lost.. and God seems so far away.. All of a sudden.. I was all alone.. Maybe I'm used to it, I tend to be stronger each and every time.. Just like you've consume all the energy left inside your body, I got nothing left to heal this.. not for this time..

I guess I believe in the wrong person.. I shouldn't be that naive all this while.. Things are kept well for 6 months and it's time to just let it fly.. I wish I can do something mean to you but that wasn't right.. I consider every single thing before I do.. and it's so tired.. I don't want history to repeat again.. No more fights.. just cool down.. and we're done..

It's the best I've got.. we should move on to our own life.. I go to my service, you go for your study.. And we should never see each other again.. You have hurt me enough..

Crazier - Taylor Swift

I've never gone with the wind
Just let it flow
Let it take me where it wants to go
'till you open the door
There's so much more
I'd never seen if before

I was tryin' fly
but I couldn't find wings
but you came along
and you changed everything

You lift me feet off the ground
Spin me around
Y ou make me crazier, crazier
Feels like I'm falling and
I'm lost in your eyes
You make me crazier, crazier
Crazier

I watched from a distance as you
Made life your own
Every sky was your own kind of blue
and I wanted to know
how that would feel
and you made it so real
You showed me somethin'
that I couldn't see
Opened my eyes and
you made me believe

You lift me feet off the ground
Spin me around
You make me crazier, crazier
Feels like I'm falling
and I'm lost in your eyes
You make me crazier, crazier Crazier,
Oh Baby you showed me what livin' is for
I don't wanna hide anymore

You lift me feet off the ground
Spin me around
You make me crazier, crazier
Feels like I'm falling and
I'm lost in your eyes
You make me crazier, crazier
Crazier, crazier Crazier

Lol.. this song is just so nice.. or in other words.. peaceful and romantic.. Anyway, the movie Hannah Montana rocks!!! I love most of the songs inside the movie.. Another great song that is worth to be introduced - Hoedown Throwdown - Miley Cyrus.. If you love being fun, this song is just perfect.. Besides, I love the dance too..!!

Another day comes..

Saturday.. the day after my school's sports day.. Both days are fun.. Lol.. Anyway, this is my last year and I'm glad I really enjoyed it.. Yesterday was Si En's birthday and we went out together to eat.. Was fun when we run like mad to look for shoes at S.O.S... haha.. Mr. Lim fell down during the Pegawai Campuran race.. Was really worried.. Luckily I did recorded the whole thingy.. Me and Cheryl are like so excited when the big wind blew and we're standing at the starting point and the finishing line..

Anyway, today went for Taekwondo.. finally get my brown belt.. Afternoon went for tuition.. Now?? Doing add.mx project and my art.. Time flies.. So many things run through my mind right now.. Oooopz.. abit emo now..

Signing off now.. ^^ Have a great weekend... =D

Stupid!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Stupid! stupid! stupid! Can I scold more of it??????!!!!!!!! I'm desperately need to have my pencil box back......... I really need it back........ Please.......
My house key.. house key is inside..

Cry again, huh? I'm tired of being stuck in this situation!!! Just COME BACK!!!!!!!!!

I lost something very precious to me..

And which is my pencil box.. I couldn't lost it but now it's gone!!! Can someone help me to look around.. I really neeeeeed it back.. Inside there are lots of precious and important things.. I really really really need it back!!!!

The description: Grey colour, with words of Chasing Dreams, faith takes no disappointment.. with two buttons on it.. with a keychain named Amy (my name) and it's quite heavy.. Lol.. Pleeeeeeeeeeaaaaaaaaaase!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I need it back.. I'm so desperate for my pencil box.. I went crazy thinking how to solve this Sherlock Holmes case.. I tried my very best to recall back but I really can't remember where it was.. I know I put it in AVA2 but when I go to check it's gone... T.T

Please... help me k? I'll be going to ask around for it too.. hopefully it will come bcak to me... T.T

Long long time..

Went back to school last Monday and it has been a week and I had not update my life for quite sometime.. Anyway, school is busy with it's major event - the 6.20 Back To School event.. I was in charge in the Food department that day and I was exhausted.. Guess what? I slept at 7pm that evening and woke up at nearly 8am. So you know how tired am I huh? Last Saturday even went out with others to McDonald to have lunch and talk about school's creepy creepy ghost stories.. Lol..

Anyway, just back from school not long.. packing food to be sold for tomorrow for the Hari Koperasi.. Reload my cell phone's money etc. That day I saw lots of ex-Highians coming back and I was quite thrilled to see tham back again.. Mum was also an ex-Highian, so she kinda like visited the whole school the whole morning..

The sale was good and we earned a big sum of money for the school.. I think there's going to be one similar event coming up again in July.. waiting for money to come in so that our school can rebuild again.. Lol..

Someone unknown sent me a CD.. was feeling quite scary.. Lol.. I hope I'm not scaring myself.. (choi choi choi..) tonight have to k-study ler.. My studies is kinda left behind.. Wednesday Chemistry exam and I don't want to fail!!! And Mum sort of accept me for one thing and I'm on cloud nine.. Yahooooo!!!!!! Can't wait till after SPM then.. ^^

习惯了。。

我习惯了..
不是吗..？
习惯了这样的生活..
习惯每一天这样的生活细节..

我不说了..
反正都一样,
强求只会让自己更快失去..
我不要后悔..

习惯..
原来不是很好..
它把原来的感觉都收藏着..
让我现在什么都感觉不到..

也好吧。。
至少呢。。
伤心时。。
也不会像以前那么痛了。。=）

Visit to Salvation Army..

Today, we committee members visited the Salvation Army Children's Home and Hostel.. We had lots of fun there with the kids and we got the chance to help them do painting, cleaning up their rooms and have fun time with them.. 9 youth missionaries joined us together.. We gave them lots of presents and ya, they are quite wild (in a good way) when they saw presents.. One of the missionary said I look mature and lokk like 21 years old... (I know, I'm old enough.. haha..) She even asked: "Which school do you teach?"
Our big family.. ^^

Si En and the winner of Musical Chair.. I think his name is Jackie or Jacky.. either one..

The kids and us..

The youth missionaries..

Playing game.. everyone was hysterical!!

They performed drama for us.. How sweet..

This is the human machine..

I get to know some of the kids family background too.. One of them is very sympathtic whose parets are blind and she was sent here to be taken care.. They all having good attitudes and they would listen to you if you used psychology which Mr. andrew used like "If you finish the chores, later got presents wor.." then they will guai guai finish everything off.. They are mostly girls but with boys below 10 years old too..

It's a meaningful trip.. =)

Kuching History - You should know it..

Again.. I'm so sorry I coordinated the pictures wrongly.. Haiz.. It's anticlockwise order.. =.= Anyway, I learnt a lot from Wen Xue Yin and it's indeed a fun camp.. I know friends from SMK Jalan Arang and SMK Pending.. 5 schools joined this camp and it's really big.. My brother joined me together in this camp.. Especially this year we're having the tour to go around the Kuching's town city and learnt about things that we hadn't been ever exposed to.. I did not take any pictures during the camp becasue we're strictly not allowed to use camera or handphone during the camp.. The organizing committee planned a lot of games and activites and invited some experienced people to come to give talk about Chines Literature..

This is the theatre.. where people perform to thank their god and goddess (for temple used only..) opposite Hong Sang Si Temple.. This is Ewe Hai Street.. very old street but inside You can discover lots of historical stuff..

Bishopgate.. the history is stated on the plat above. Before that, when you walk through this gate, there was a small hill behind..

the other group members and the tauke from the coffee shophouse came out to explain to us the history.. near the gate there were three peppermint trees.. You just have to pluck the leaves the rubbed on your hand and smell it.. It's very sweet and a bit of mint flavour..

This is "Jiao Di Di" Barber house.. Due to the limited time, we didn't have the chance to interview the "tauke neo".. It's quite cheap over here, according to other group's presentation..

The view of the street..

One of the Chinese Medical Shop.. We interviewed the tauke here.. He has around 40 plus years of doing business experience and he inherits this business from his father..

The nearly-finish Dewan Mesyuarat across the Sarawak River..

The British symbol found on the wall on one of the shophouses.. I still don't understand the meaning behind it.. Lol..

A lorong.. very antique, isin't it? Looks like the old China street..

Some of the building still has the European style window.. Most of the shop owner has renovated and they had taken away the window and changed to something modern.. It's good that some didn't do anything about it so that people can continue to see the historical marks left behind by the British..

You might thought that this is a kampung.. but it's actually a very old shop..

The outside view of a temple.. Along the streets and around the centre of the town, there are at least 4 temples that can be found..

This is a very unique shop.. especially for someone who loves to collect old coins and stamps like me, this shop gave me a very deep impression.. One of our members bought one set of stamp consisting the very early Mickey Mouse and other Disney cartoon characters..

Old coins and paper money..

Money money money.. Give me money..

This is the thing when something happen, especially emergency or on the date of the birthday of a god or goddess, the person-in-charge of the temple will knock this anchor thingy to tell people in the street about it.. It's quite unique actually..

Shang Ti Miao..

Another temple along Carpenter Street..

Look at the ceiling.. It's almost the perfect ancient roof that you still can find in Kuching!! Well, according to our tour guide.. ^^

Rubbing the medicine into powder form.. a very ancient and typical way of producing medicine..

Look at this and you can imagine how old is the coffee shop already..

One of the European style window again.. patched with different colours of glasses..

This is the place where the British used to menternak the horse.. After that the location is change to near SJK Chung Hua No.3.. That's why near there, there used to be a school called SMK Lumba Kuda.. but now the school's name is changed again into SMK Padungan..

A very significant Arch.. It's called the Harmony Arch..

Si Bang Lau (Hokkien).. It means clinic to old people..

General Post Office..

Looks like a tower.. When the British was here before, the soldiers lived in here.. Looks like a fairy tale tower to me.. love the flowers down there.. Lol..

Busy street during daytime..

Can you believe that this is actually built by the Japanese?? It's really outstanding, very impressive architecture..

This is a fountain.. and To calculate the distance, we start counting from here.. Like you go to 7th mile, we count the distance from here.. So, this is much like a starting point.. Before that around 2003, there used to have a big tree here but sadly it tumbled down..

The Court House.. Another European style of architecture..

I found out that outside the Court House, there is a dragon carving on the staircase.. So, it's actually a Chinese and British culture combination??

This is the front view of the Court House.. there a clock there.. and built in 1883..

(Oh dear.. I accidentally deleted one Chinese warrior photo.. ==) Anyway, these warriors are from different races in Sarawak and they fought to take back our land..)

Charles Brooke who served Sarawak for almost 46 years..

If you walk along the Waterfront, you'll definitely walk past this Main Bazaar street..

Our Kuching Square Tower is in renovation..

China Street..

Bishop gate..If you want to find souvenirs, walk down this street instead of turning to Bishopgate Street..

Unique? Hung on the wall and you have to look up to see it..

Sailing.. haha..

Lotsa souvenirs.. and pasu or we call it tembikar is one of the famous souvenirs that tourists usually brought back to their home..

This is a temple theatre where people perform some ancient drama to thank God.. However, nowadays it became a karaoke cmpetition.. as long as it is entertainment..

The first temple that we visited..

People wrote their wishes and hung onto the roof.. isn't it pretty and symbolises luck (ang ang.. means red in Hokkien) haha..

Legend has it said that the water in this well will not dry up.. never ever.. even it is drought.. But 'm not sure how deep it is.. Looks quite shallow inside..

This is to ask the god about their opinion.. We need to bow our head before we take photograph as a sign of respect.. On the left side means good and the god agrees, while on the right side it means not really good or he wasn't satisfied..

Paper money burnt to give to god..

These money is well-liked because in Chines, we call it "Chang Qian".. so that we can "Chang Chang Jiu Jiu", "Chang Fa Da Cai" etc..

Instrument.. something like a sword..

We burn these candles because it brings us luck.. in Kantonese or Hokkien, we call pineapple as "ong lai".. In Hokkien, Ong means luck, Lai means come..

The inside view of the tower..

Our team.. ^^ purple!!

My group got the overall Champion during the camp.. We had a lot of fun and it was meaningful.. Even though we don't have sufficient time to really go through every single street in the town.. but still, ok lah.. My brother even said that he wanted to join next year.. Hopefully lor..^^