A day near the end of the year..

So.. Today is a Tuesday..Went to school yesterday and today to work at kopearasi. I went to my workplace gathering at KFC. Bought wedges for mummy and daddy. :) Sunday brought hubby to church and after that went to the Spring to watch Gulliver's Travel with him and Sharon and Ronald.. :)there goes what happened around this weekend..

Tomorrow will be going back to work ler.. Last few days before I say goodbye to my dearest Trinity Bookroom and headed to a new year 2011 and back to school.. Haven't completed a lot of homework.. :S Don't feel like going back to school at all.. I don't want to face my STPM.. I feel like escaping.. I wanna go somewhere else to live.. I don't want to face exams anymore ler.. :( Can I?

I really don't know why am I moody lately.. especially these few days.. AND especially today.. :(I had no idea at all.. I mad at my hubby that he spent more time to play game than to pei me.. I mad at him for not accepting me in the facebook request about our realtionship status.. :( All because that I'm small gas right? *Big Sigh* I wish he could spend more time with me to chat.. I dunno why.. I just felt unsafe without him at my side.. This is how much I have rely him all these while.. This is so torturing..

I really don't know how to go on for next year.. Every year end gives me a huge emotional turmoil.. I wish I had finished school now.. And get to chase my dreams.. I cried every night to sleep while talking on the phone with hubby.. I guess it's really anoying to hear people cry every night.. I told him all the time that I want to be alone but actually I wish he could just hug me tight in his arms and tell me everything's gonna be all right and everything's gonna turn out like what we want.. I need that so much.. I'm so timid and weak.. Everyone turns out to be so brave to welcome anything that's coming in their life but not me.. I'm so scared to accept and to lose at the same time.. I don't like changes.. That's me.. *sigh sigh sigh*

I babble a lot.. But this is the only place I can spilled out everything to the world.. My little cosy bloggie world.. :) I switched off my phone till tonight.. Cause don't feel like hearing from my hubby.. Sigh.. What am I supposed to do now? I feel so lonely.. Sigh.. I don't want my 2010 end up just like that eh.. T.T sob sob sob..

Bitterguard emotions

You know why it's called bitterguard emotions for my post today.. Cause I had a bad feeling and I really feel bitter.. Sadly to say that..

You know, it's been torturing me for a whole year.. This thought.. This insane unbelievable outrageous crazy abnormal whatsoever adjective that can describe this awfulness of thought.. It's been stucking in my head for almost 365 days liao..
T.T I feel like crying.. seriously.. I really wanna cry.. I think I'm crazy.. T.T

I open a new facebook account ler.. I had a new email address.. I have a dream that I wish to have my own shop when I grow up.. I want to open a gift shop and sell a lot of stuffs.. I wanna reach the stars which I have always wanted to reach..

I wish hubby is here.. I wish hubby is here at my side.. Cause I need his hug hug so that I will feel safe.. I miss him badly.. :( I wanna be with my hubby forever.. Is that permissible?? Can we get married earlier?? I can't live without him.. :( I felt insecure when I"m alone.. I felt scared.. :( when will this feeling go away?? :( this is so awful and so so.. BITTER.. :(

Holiday life..

Hi hi.. I'm back again, bloggie.. hehe.. Here's come my story-telling time about my holiday life..

Basically it's all about busy working.. hehe.. Latest news about me would be learning beading with my colleagues.. We had this beading class at One Jaya there.. And each lesson costs RM30.. I spent RM50 to buy the tools.. I borrow RM100 from my mummy dearest to pay for all this.. Lols.. I dunno how I spend my RM200 which I had just withdrawn not long ago.. Scary eh.. lols.. I'm such a spendthrift..

Hmm.. my sweet lovely hubby had gone to KL for family trip.. Miss him so badly.. My working place is currently having sale now.. And David has resigned to study pastorial in Sibu.. :) Caught a headache today.. Sob sob..

Oh ya.. Hubby promised that he is going to church with me for Christmas service on 26th December~!!! hehe.. hopefully God cares enough to answer my prayer.. I wanna be a soul winner for God.. and bring hubby to Christ.. ^^ hehe.. Lord Lord, may thy will be done.. ^^

Hmm.. Next year gonna resign my ISCF and Badminton club.. probably Karen and Kevin are going to kill me.. Sigh.. But I was left with no choice.. I need time to catch up my homework and I am a slow learner.. :( Sadly to say that I haven't touch much of my homework during the holiday.. :( Letters will be given to teacher once school reopen.. Sigh sigh.. I'm running out of time!!!!

Lord.. I'm here!! Woohoo~!! By the way, I deactivate my facebook account dy.. Plan to get myself a new email address.. ^^

A day in December

Today was blessed because I got an off day.. Which means I can stay at home relaxed a bit and can do my homework. I haven't start doing it yet for today though. So Long no blogging. Dunno why suddenly feel sleepy in front of computer here.

I woke up quite early this morning.. Ate breakfast, read newspapers and then take a shower. Then headed downstairs to use computer. Recently nothing much happened though. Yesterday was a public holiday. A lot of customers. Last friday meet up with old friends and spend a lot of fun time together. Had a lot of happy moments.

Can't wait for this coming Sunday though. Can meet up with my hubby ler. I bought some new year clothes last Saturday and it cost me RM70. Pretty expensive. But the cost for all things are raised up nowadays. So what to do??

Earning for a living. Not sure whether paying for my own clothing is the right decision is the right one or not.. But.. note to self: no regrets, sweetie.

All right. Enough for my craps and rubbish spilled for today. Till then.