A day near the end of the year..

So.. Today is a Tuesday..Went to school yesterday and today to work at kopearasi. I went to my workplace gathering at KFC. Bought wedges for mummy and daddy. :) Sunday brought hubby to church and after that went to the Spring to watch Gulliver's Travel with him and Sharon and Ronald.. :)there goes what happened around this weekend..

Tomorrow will be going back to work ler.. Last few days before I say goodbye to my dearest Trinity Bookroom and headed to a new year 2011 and back to school.. Haven't completed a lot of homework.. :S Don't feel like going back to school at all.. I don't want to face my STPM.. I feel like escaping.. I wanna go somewhere else to live.. I don't want to face exams anymore ler.. :( Can I?

I really don't know why am I moody lately.. especially these few days.. AND especially today.. :(I had no idea at all.. I mad at my hubby that he spent more time to play game than to pei me.. I mad at him for not accepting me in the facebook request about our realtionship status.. :( All because that I'm small gas right? *Big Sigh* I wish he could spend more time with me to chat.. I dunno why.. I just felt unsafe without him at my side.. This is how much I have rely him all these while.. This is so torturing..

I really don't know how to go on for next year.. Every year end gives me a huge emotional turmoil.. I wish I had finished school now.. And get to chase my dreams.. I cried every night to sleep while talking on the phone with hubby.. I guess it's really anoying to hear people cry every night.. I told him all the time that I want to be alone but actually I wish he could just hug me tight in his arms and tell me everything's gonna be all right and everything's gonna turn out like what we want.. I need that so much.. I'm so timid and weak.. Everyone turns out to be so brave to welcome anything that's coming in their life but not me.. I'm so scared to accept and to lose at the same time.. I don't like changes.. That's me.. *sigh sigh sigh*

I babble a lot.. But this is the only place I can spilled out everything to the world.. My little cosy bloggie world.. :) I switched off my phone till tonight.. Cause don't feel like hearing from my hubby.. Sigh.. What am I supposed to do now? I feel so lonely.. Sigh.. I don't want my 2010 end up just like that eh.. T.T sob sob sob..