Guess So

I guess today was one of those days that I feel extremely down and moody.Please don't tell me that day is repeating again, where memories trailed back 2 years ago that left me bleeding and hurt. Where you cry out and ask for treatment and even the best doctor in the world can't even heal you. Except God.

I get speechless today. Thankfully today's paper is ok for me. Speechless for what has happened to situation around me, personally. Especially the one who is dearest to my hear.

Nobody knows what has got into me emotions lately. Not even me myself. I feel like lying on bed all night. Waiting for you. But no. I can't let myself down and get defeated like that. I'm not a loser. I want to be a winner.

If you happened to read this and do not understand what I say, that's ok. Cause it's not meant to be understood.

Where have you been? Sigh. That's the questions I've asked all the time when I'm waiting alone for your reply.

What happened to me too?

Tomorrow and 2 more days

Tomorrow is Muet. 2 more days is STPM.

Hopefully I can get a result that can enable me to enter local university..

*crossing fingers*

Need all your prayers. It's crucial. :D

Expectations

Parents and other relatives are expecting I'll do well in STPM. Well, hopefully I will.. Though I doubted myself.

Today is a Saturday. Hmm.. Doing revision of course. But now I"m sneaking away to surf internet and play Plants vs. Zombies to relax. Thank goodness my parents are not at home. If not, I'll feel guilty..

Can't wait for my long holidays though. Waiting waiting waiting..

Talking about you

We had the best conversation last night. I was so active that I don't want to go to bed and yet you were patient to chat with me. We talk about lame jokes, claiming to revenge on each other whenever we see each other(which is toady) and our future. You spoilt my cold joke, making me feel so speechless. But I'm so reluctant to mad at you cause at that moment you make me laugh so hard and feel like pinching your cheeks(even though they are not chubby). You always give the best advice you can, the best comfort a guy can give i think.

But I wanna say that, thank you. For exchanging the rum and raisin ice-cream with me with your favorite passion fruit yogurt. You knew that I chose the wrong flavour when the rest of the flavors of ice-cream are almost finished but not the rum and raisin. I always wanted to go to that ice-cream shop to eat but I'm happiest when my first time is you and me.

Thank you for sending me home and watching me to open gates until I enter and locked the door. I'm sorry for the doubts and sorry for naughtily accusing you thinking of other gals when you're not responding me on the phone.

Thank you, for making me your special girl.