A little bit of love. Here and There.

Today is Sunday, 29th of July. Went to church in the morning and later had lunch with hubby. We went to Fusion Grill, Jalan Song to try out. Never been there before. As we walked in, we thought it's a western restaurant, but then also saw some Korean traditional clothes hanging on the wall and some decorations. Love the surrounding as it's half bar half dining place. So it turns out that it serves both western and korean cuisine.

We ordered hubby's favourite Fish and Chips, my favourite Ceasar Salad, and a Hawaiian Pizza. AS for drinks we ordered Mocktail given by a name Laguna. I never try mocktail before. So I asked the waiter to introduce one for me. Since I don't understand, I just told him to introduce to me something sweet. So he suggested Laguna. When it was served, it was awesomely beautiful, even though it's just a blue colour drink. Haha.

Anyway, when I was bathing just now, my lips cracked into a smile when I think of what we did in the afternoon. I love ham and cheese and pineapple, especially on pizza. Hubby picked all of them and gave them to me and all he ate is an empty pizza with only tomato sauce. Being with him, I'll never go hungry as he will make sure I eat till I complain I'm going to burst.

We are making to our 3rd Anniversary this Tuesday, July 31st. He may not be perfect, not rich, not pampering me with roses or bears or sweets or chocolates or surprises, but his simple love for me- always protects me so that I'm not bullied, make sure I will always eat full full, be there for me when I'm upset, and most importantly, love me unconditionally throughout these 3 years have already made me feel like I'm the happiest and luckiest girl in this world.

Happy 3rd Anniversary to you in advance, hubby! :)

Longing for your return

It's 3 minutes past eleven and I'm longing for you to come home. I haven't had a nice day ever since my uni results came out. Mum was kiasu and she felt embarrassed to tell others about my uni result. If she felt embarrassed, then what about me?

You are the only one closest to me and I really can't sleep without you. Though tomorrow have to wake up at 5a.m., I'm still willing to wait, I don't mind. I wish we're staying together so that I can have your hug at anytime I want.

Sometimes I wish you don't have to work as a waiter so that you won't have to come home late. I don't mind waiting, it's just that wouldn't it be nice to come home earlier and we can chat for a longer time? What'd you say?

Mum was complaining that I am not thrifty. She got mad. I bought her McD Chicken Foldover and she didn't say thanks or show any appreciation at all. She scolded and nag. I just want to buy it and let her try and pamper her. I scared I don't have the chance to do it anymore once I started studying or working or perhaps when I get married. I wish as much as she would understand the reasons behind for doing all these are out of love. But she just can't see the way I see. It hurts.

Where did I do wrong at the first place? Where? Why is my life seems so stormy all the time and yet I couldn't find an achor to hold my life? I felt so lonely. So lonely that I thought I was near the edge of shattering apart. So uncertain that even God told me that He kept something better for me than everybody else but I couldn't be sure of it. Where's my faith?

I wish you're home now. Then like every night, I will imagine that we're just next to each other and I have you to cuddle me in your arms and rock me to my dreamland.

Whining?

I didn't get into local university when the results were out on last Friday. Was truly feeling disappointed though I know I should have prepared for the worst. My parents were disappointed too and claimed that I was a very unlucky girl. It's not what I want though. To be honest, I'm jealous of others who got the offer.

Ms. Lee said I cried because I kiasu. Ya, indeed. It runs in my blood. Even I receive the offer from Kelantan or Terengganu, I might be a little bit happy but after all, whether going there absolutely will be another matter of fact. My parents might not want to release me.

I did re-apply again. But, not gonna put too much hope in it. Chances are I'm going to a semi-government institution. My parents even want me to get a First Class Honour if possible so that I don't have to pay the loan. *sigh*

I'm taking Business Administration if I'm not going to local uni. Right now, I'm still working until probably End of September. Gonna miss my students a lot. But not gonna miss my principal. *crooked smile*

Today is a Monday which I'm really lonely at home though. Hmm.. parents all go out and my brother is in school. I'm blogging here and going to offline soon. Anyway, hope for the best. My faith has slacked. But I know overall, God is still in control :)

Grateful

I'm grateful for my part time jobs. Though it consumes my energy a lot (especially my part time jobs requires me to stand for a long period of time) I truly felt blessed and happy.

I went for the Sarawak Furniture Expo and work part time sales promoter for 3 days. Happy to work with Sammy and a new colleague Jeanie. And 3 of us are Christians! So happy. Just felt that we get along very well. And had fun together. On the last day of the fair, Sammy and I went for McD for supper. We ate Chicken Foldover. Guess what happened next? Sammy's car battery flat and both of us wait for my hubby to come and "jump" the battery.

And today, it is my first day working at L'ocittane Spring. A boutique selling French fragrance and body care and other skin care products. They are all very pricey indeed. >< There's one product that really attracts my heart, which is the Shaping Delight. It has the slimming and resculpting function, but will cost me RM205. T.T

Well, finally I had the time to blog and relax. Phew.. Tonight going to sleep earlier liao. Can you imagine, I haven't played my Castleville for two weeks already. I only go and help to click nia.

Oh well, going to pong pong now. Bye :)

A Deep Ponder

As you all know, I've started my small arts and crafts business since this year May. Today is a Sunday and I went to church with my cousin. I had bible study earlier and I brought along my bookmarks to let Aunty Sharon see. She had bought 2 from me last week and another 2 today.

After lunch with cousin today, we went for shopping around Jalan Song. Then after everything was done, I sent her home. She gave me this piece of advice which makes me in deep ponder.

"If got relatives like uncles aunties or cousins buy bookmarks from you, it's not good to receive money from them. Especially like Auntie Sharon who has blessed you so much." I was really embarrassed by this advice though. I just smiled as response. I really dunno how to answer at that moment.

AS I sit down and think about my business, my customers basically consists of Aunt Sharon, my friend Yun Yi, Karen and my students. I'm really grateful even though I only had few customers at the moment only. But then my business is only growing a little, hardly make profit cause arts and crafts materials are quite costly. Need to really sell a lot to earn back my business modal. My profit is still negative. To be honest, And to be frank, my total sales up to today is only RM49. (I find it hilarious) little and yet it really cheer me up. I've set aside that 10% of my revenue will goes into Go's pocket, 40% as my wages and the rest as to buy materials and as petty cash.

I felt guilty though. Was thinking about this issue and kept asking myself did I do wrong or not. Did I? Please leave advice for me. One thing for sure, after this business has settle down, privilege card will be made for my customers and my family members and cousins and aunties and uncles and best friends and my hubby, they don't have to buy from me. They can get them for free. And so include Aunty Sharon too.

But my business have to earn first.. Sigh.. I got flu today. Dun feel like going to Grandma house tomorrow. Want to sleep like a pig until late in the morning. Then only I'm satisfy and go to work. *wink*