I thought it was..

Oh.. it used to be.. something happened lately, and God has touched my heart deeply.. Today ISCF finished earlier and so Ms. Law shared about salvation.. She managed to lead three girls to accept Christ which is.. Hallelujah!!!! Haha.. thank you so much Lord!!!

Anyway, after the meeting, I cried.. I told Ms. Law to keep on reminding me that God is good all the time.. So that I'd remember him.. He puts in lots of things in my life.. It seems hard.. but I remembered that I need not fear where I am going when God is going with me.. I need not worry cause I know I have this treasure.. which is God.. I told Ms. Law that I left out God a lot and I know He must have been very sad because I know in every part of my life, He wants to help me in everything.. But I seldom give him chances.. I always do things on my own.. I hardly ask help.. I'm used to the life where I go on my own.. I just dunno how to re-rely on God.. All I know is that is the first time me and teacher cried.. Yeah, God is faithful and good.. the ultimate BESTEST friend and God..

Something major happened too.. something that can strike part of my life.. I told myself that I would not let God down and myself down..I would never do things that would make myself regret.. Even if so, I told God I'd be strong cause in every part of my life, God never stop teaching and I want to learn God's way.. I want to change.. so many times I hurt myself and I keep lying that I'm ok.. reminds me on How our mighty Saviour nailed on the cross and was sleashed by the Roman soldiers even Jesus is not guilty.. He was carrying the whole worlds pain.. So I want to keep that in mind that whatever I'm facing is just a small deal compared to what Jesus has gone through to save us.. It would be a remarkable scar and that scar will always remind me that God cares for me and He struggles to hold me back and not lead me to danger and not allow me to get hurt.. I know God cares a lot for me.. more than i thought..

So.. whatever I am going through, even though it's painful or hard and at times I'd be giving up.. or having the urge to do something stupid.. I will always hold God with me and want to remember that God is always always always always there for me.. and I need not fear at all.. =D