Smile :)

I made it well yesterday.. I put on a sincere smile to face the world.. But deep inside my heart, only God knows that it was still a mask on my face..

I smile, laugh, cherish with him yesterday, joke around with him like as if nothing happened.. We'll be good friends, or no, best best best friends.. WE both make it to be a pause, take a break for this relationsip and focus on studies.. What it hurts today was every little things around me reminds of him.. I made it through today in school.. But when I'm in the bus, I cried.. Back at home, cried again.. It's just too painful to me..

Sigh.. He said he miss the days being single.. Am I a burden to him all these while? Or he refused to hurt me so he chose to keep quiet? Will things changed after my final exam next year? I wish I could know the answer.. I wish I could dig them out..

I have a lot of questions.. But.. I don't want to make him or myself sad anymore.. Feel like asking... Still I don't have the courage to go on for now.. I'll get through soon, this.. I believe..

Psalm 34:18 The Lord is close to the broken-hearted and those who are crushed in the spirit.. :)