Last day in April

Today audition for the Teacher's Day event.. the band performance are outstanding.. =) some of them are kicked out from our choices.. some of the students are really talented in singing.. they can definitely sing very well.. lol.. the choir is not in.. T.T haiz.. overall today was quite tiring but fun.. ^^

Here here.. this is a very nice movie to watch.. it's call "Time between Dog and Wolf" a korean drama.. it was quite long ago already.. but recently, my classmate and I are very fond of korean movies and drama.. so eventually I found out this movie.. honestly, I haven't watch.. but I think it's gonna be a good movie.. the plot is very different from the other stories.. If you have the time or very interested, try this: Time between Dog and Wolf - I can't break it into my hearts (in Youtube) it's a music video and that music video almost reveal the whole plot (agak-agak lar..) lol..

Time to mourn for this handsome prince.. T.T I can't believe he's a drug addict.. T.T now his image is ruined and lotsa movies can't be shoot, I mean those he's involved in.. so sad, right? He's so charming.. turning 27 this year at 16 May.. (haha.. birthday earlier than him by 10 days..) anyway.. why on earth he has to do such thing? (haiz.. so stupid..)

Tomorrow Labour Day.. Yeah.. and have to complete homework too.. and go shopping!! Happy birthday to Jerome and Doris!! Happy Sweet 17...

Cacat post..

Haiz.. change number so hard kah? perpaid nia mah.. get new number then new number lor.. not good meh? T.T very lazy to use postpaid ler.. besides this promise has been dragging.. i can reload my own de lar.. I can walk there de mar.. it's so so much cheaper than postpaid wor.. help you to save money cannot kah? though it's complicated, but umm.. cheap mar.. haiz.. cannot kah? ok lor.. then use the RM50 de package lor.. weird hor? why not allow me to use RM30 per month de.. save RM20 eh.. besides, I'm mature enough to control my expenses mar.. though I'm spendthrift.. please lar.. never ask anything from you guys for so long ler.. please please please.. I promise I'll do everything on my own.. try to cut down any cost as possible.. please lar.. T.T

Benewal

Heylo.. My classmate, who sat in front of me de.. recommend me some new songs.. and gosh, I'm obseessed.. click the video bar at the side and you will watch a very nice music video entitled - Because I'm a Girl by Kiss. I love the plot.. lol.. very touching. And a new song from Fish Leong - Mei You Ru Guo.. both are very nice if you're a sentimental person.. hehe..

Anyway, life as usual..do sit up, flexibility test and weigh my body mass and height during PJK lesson.. and just a very simple and sweet day.. me and a few classmates wrote a few poems in class cause quite free mah.. and it's was very fun!! haha.. though they are crazy poems.. wel, it's still very nice.. =) I guess that's all.. happy day everyone.. oh yea.. tons of homework needed to be done this week.. this thursday audition.. hehe..

Loneliness

Yesterday I went for two Seminar in MBKS, for the physics and chemistry seminar.. Morning one was quite okay, cause still very "bersemangat", but then till afternoon, my brain has shut down and was quite tired already.. After everything, I went for my add maths tuition and had my dinner in the car..

I met a girl from SMK Arang, Form 4 and Joyce sitting beside me, met a new girl from Lodge school, Form 4. We end up four of us sitting together during chemistry. The very sight I saw them, I mean the two strangers, I saw loneliness inside them. They are so lonely that they can't find a friend to sit with, unlike me I still have Joyce sitting with me throughout the whole day..

It was not just lonely.. what I see is they are lonely in heart.. in soul.. they are not having same age of friends to talk to, to share their problems, to pour out things that they want to, to laugh and cry with, and not having friends to walk through teenage lives.. looking back, it's really lucky to have so many friends in class and in school.. to share, to gossip, to talk to.. Sometimes we have to be initiative to reach out for them.. If you've been lonely before, truly lonely, then actually you'll know what they feel inside..

Anyway, my leg gets better and I can walk and run more freely.. hehe.. the wound starts to get scratchy.. trying my best to control.. how I wish I can eat laksa soon.. mum said cannot eat cause will get allergic.. so happy that my friends are going to celebrate my belated birthday at 30th May.. yipee!! I always wanted to have a day with my friends like that.. i guess mum and dad can't say anything eh.. besides it's now or never!!

Acceptance

Well, first of all.. I think I don't have enough sleep lately.. or the other way round.. i dunno.. anyway, our school has conducted two spotchecks these two days respectively.. the day before was Form 4 and today is Form 3.. wow.. lotsa correction fluid confiscated and a few handphones too.. some sweets, mirrors etc.

So, I'm practically missing a lot of lessons.. haha.. umm.. today Hope Church youth members came to our school and give sharing.. Very nice.. haha.. Tonight going for musical concert with Ms. Law and my brother.. so glad that Sharon will be going too.. ^^ And the Gideons International went to our school yesterday to give out free Bibles to students.. You know what? It was really great.. I couldn't stay that long cause I have to go back to class.. know a guy who helped out yesterday, from Sabah.. I thought he was bumi.. but then he can speak Chinese!! haha.. (din ask for his name.. lol..) take some photos.. and Mr. Lim came to support too.. with the help of some teachers.. ^^ It was great yesterday..

This morning, thank you so much Hong Lan, for her caring.. for bringing me into the office and change the bandage for me.. with the help of Michelle.. and thanks to H.S.L. of our school for giving guielines on how-to-heal-the-wound-faster. Thanks to teacher too for caring.. lol.. and thanks thanks thanks a lot.. Honestly, it's really "yucky", even Gary said that.. lol.. It's still swollen.. no more putting bandage liao.. Hope it heals soon..

This Sunday oing for Mr. Lee's talk at MBKS, 8:30 till 12:30 (x_x) 4 long dragging hours.. haiz.. (I'll be tough.. it's for my SPM!!) haha.. Well, hopefully things get moving on safe and sound.. and I've learn to accept certain things in life.. I also learn that why not try to accept and instead trying to fight about it, and you know the end result is a disappoinment? =D

Free. Fly. Set. Go

Weird title, eh? haha.. i wanted to write like.. um.. I'm feeling free.. I feel like flying.. and get ready, get set and go.. haha..

Hmm.. how unlucky I am lately.. Fall down twice in a week.. consider serious injury.. haiz.. I think I need a tongkat liao.. wahaha.. anyway, feeling great lately..

Oh, yeah yeah yeah!! The boys are getting free haircut by Pn. Sutinah today.. Oh gosh.. they become so "erhem".. (good looking lar..) and some turns out better after the haircut.. many of them scolded Pn. Wong for catching them to trim unprofessioanlly outside the office.. i think.. I guess only like a few escaped satisfied the high standard from Puan Wong.. like Fabian, Aaron Chia, Kok Boon and Jonathan..

I forgot what to write liao.. so just simply put an ending.. see my next post.. lol..

Peace. Emptiness

How does it feel when down inside your heart is so empty and feelingless? I felt peaceful.. ready to let go and start all over.. all those stupid things and unworthy stuffs.. why should I care much about them? They don't even worth a single penny to me anymore..

A flow of clamness just flows through like that.. preparing this fragile heart and soul to face every hardships in life... I'm not going to give up.. no.. even if it hurts.. it is painful.. it is tiring.. I'm going to do the same.. stubborn for a good reason.. and.. and... and..

Department

Life without online was actually great. (what am I talking about? lol..) Today was thursday.. life as usual.. so, umm.. things that happened lately.. well.. our class team lost in the debate.. and I really felt guilty for letting down my friends a.k.a. my teammates.. though they don't mind about it and comfort me.. I think I saw my English teacher's expression (a bit shock)on the spot that day when I was delivering my rebuts in front of everyone.. I was messed up with my points.. I was nervous.. but I just thought of giving my best (or more like giving shots and just blah everything out that stopped by in my mind..) But I managed to handle my "emo" emotions after the debate by giving myself a long nap than usual when I reached home..

Mum and Dad were like a bit "disappointed" about my performance.. mum was like: you're not qualified enough to take part, why go up and embarrased yourself? Dad was like: Haiz.. why become like this.. then he went on pointing out my weakness and blah blah blah.. I wasn't in the mood to listen when he talked in the car.. I actualy felt a bit lighter that my parents day something like this.. though it's a bit like spreading salt on the wound..

Anyway.. my friends took part in the public speaking today and tomorrow still got one BM debate in the RTM studio.. have to pray hard for them.. haha.. wish they can win.. My friends went for Folio Kerjaya and they won the first place!! Great!! Wish me luck too for tomorrow's National Postal Bible Quiz.. I only studied halfway.. lol.. Btw, Congratulations to Cheryl, Kim Chern and Seth.. You guys are really good in debating!! Hehe.. especially the technique of showing prove to us by Cheryl.. me, Karen and Felicia were totally speechless.. hehe..

Thanks Daddy..

Hmm.. just managed to print out the prefects attendance duty list.. thanks to Dad who willingly to call my uncle to fix it single-handedly.. lol..

I just had a funny argument with Dad in the car while we're on the way home form my BM tuition.. I told Dad that I was nervous for tomorrow's debate.. Guess what Dad said? (umm.. it's just a convo.. those who read this post please don't get mad.. hehe..)

Dad: Why are you so coward? Go out and show them what you've got!! They are the school debaters.. so what? Go ahead and blast them out.. If I had the chance I would shoot them.. and give a kick off at their butt..

(I can't believe Dad was so excited when I told him I wasn't very confident in doing the third speaker tomorrow.. He goes on giving silly encouragement which makes me feel warm and oh well.. it's funny.. hehe.. )

Hmm.. today very interesting.. My brother was chatting with me even though we're just opposite with each other at home.. ) cute arr.. haha...

Tonight's stars are very beautiful.. Those beautiful stars reminded me of God's carring and love for me.. cause when Abraham said he wanted a son.. God asked him to count the stars in the sky.. and that's the number of sons God will give to him.. God is good.. all the time.. He's good when the world turns down on me.. He's the only one who stays faithfully beside me.. ^^ Thanks "Daddy".. and thanks earthly Daddy.. ^^

A Holy-Day..

Today is Good Friday... It's a day when you remember that the Son of God died for us to bring salvation and to take away our sins.. (that is only if you believe in God and is a Chirstian.. haha..) I didn't go to church.. well before that a lot of people asked me whether do I go to church or not today.. Unfortunately, my family aren't Christian.. so.. =D

Last night watched "1 litres of Tears" (A short Japanese drama) through Youtube.. very nice and touching.. I guess I'm sensitive.. cause everytime the main Character, a cheerful girl named Aya fall down or accidentally hurt herself, my heart ached for her.. She'a having this kind of.. umm.. what you call the.. cerebellum atrophy.. so kolian.. I drop a few tears in the first episode.. I'm so obessed with the movie.. ^^ lol.. weird me..

This morning my parents only woke up at 9:30.. then go out and eat around 11:30 (a combination of lunch and breakfast) hehe.. then go home.. type this blog lor.. haha..

Night got art tuition.. this morning I'm supposed to go to school to help to clean up prefect's room.. but Eleen smsed me at 7 something and my parents are not awake yet.. so I cant go.. (sorry.. ) haiz.. I hope they are doing well.. ^^ Monday also holiday.. so.. afternoon go to Karen's house for the debate thing.. =( and night got pair study with Sharon.. morning might go to school.. it depends.. lol..

Happy Easter!!

I should smile..

I just don't have the least idea why am I so left out recently.. Is the problem within me? lol.. I was even disappointed when my two childhood buddies end up couldn't come with me for the camp.. there are only 6 people going to the camp from our school.. and I was one of the lucky ones.. haiz.. I was down all the time when I emcee with Edmund.. unwillingly I agreed to read the "ikrar" this morning..

So.. whatever it is.. life still have to go on.. I should continue to smile along.. I shouldn't fret and strut.. I need to slow down and appreciate everything I have all this while.. shouldn't complain much.. Should try to reach out my both hands for the sunshine in every morning.. and continue to enjoy the greatness and the sweetness of life.. and let the wind continue to blow on my face say "thank you" within.. I shouldn't care much what I am in other's eyes.. I just have to be myself.. ^^ (bluek..)

I learnt a lot of things too today.. Love myself, and use the love to love as many people as possible.. Always believe in myself no matter what happen.. and hang in there instead of giving up.. even though at times it's rough and tough.. life goes around with kinda difficult.. suffocating.. and I thought that would be the last breath of my life and waiting to go back home.. sometimes I really feel like escaping, but i guess if I just give in and give up.. I think I'll be sorry to God and myself.. and I'd lost all my dreams.. =D

=D It's a small deal...

Just went shooping with my teacher to buy gifts for the youths who's coming to our school ISCF on 24th April.. Bought 6 very nice notebooks... I'm so tempted to buy one.. lol.. end up I bought 2 pins.. haha... Today is Mr. Edmund's birthday (erhemm.. my birthday is on next month!! Yihehehe.. turning 17.. "v") I'm going out to eat crab crab!! Yahoo!!

Guess what? Kuching High lost the volleyball match.. T.T what can do? a bit disappointed actually.. recently I'm a bit left out by my friends.. Today is really fun... cause my class beg Pn. Loo to give us permission to go out to watch volleyball match (C.H.M.S. No.1 vs SMK Lundu) we're actually beaten down by SMK Lundu.. lol.. We're begging her for almost 20 minutes.. only then she allowed us to go.. hahaha.. you had no idea how the fun is when we're begging teacher... hahaha...

Fabian is absent for more than a week.. Aaron's grandma just passed away yesterday... lotsa things going on.. My group suddenly pop out one new prefect.. lol.. have to rearrange everything.. the duty list.. Dad bought me "The Devil Wears Prada" haha.. so happy... and I'm joining the Unimas camp on 31 May till 2 June.. I'm going with my childhood buddies.. yeah!!

Anyway.. Wish the readers of my blog have a happy life.. and everything goes well in life.. ^^ God Bless

If..

If you can keep your head when all about you
Are losing theirs and blaming it on you,
If you can trust yourself when all men doubt you
but make allowance for their doubting too,

If you can wait and not be tired by waiting,
Or being lied about, don’t deal in lies,
Or being hated, don’t give way to hating
And yet not look too good, nor talk too wise:

If you can dream - but not make dreams your master,
If you can think - but not make thoughts your aim;
If you can meet with Triumph and Disaster
And treat those two imposters just the same;

If you can bear to hear the truth you’ve spoken
Twisted by knaves to make a trap for fools,
Or watch the things you gave your life to, broken,
And stoop and build them up with worn-out tools

If you can make one heap of all your winnings
And risk it all on one turn of pitch-and-tossAnd lose,
and start again at your beginnings
And never breathe a word about your loss;

If you can force your heart and nerve and sinew
To serve your turn long after they are gone,
And so hold on, when there is nothing in you
Except the Will which says to them: “Hold on!”

If you can talk with crowds and keep your virtue,
Or walk with kings, yet not lose the common touch,
If neither foes nor loving friends can hurt you;
If all men count with you, but none too much,

If you can fill the unforgiving minute
With sixty seconds’ worth of distance run
Yours is the Earth and everything in it,
And, what is more, you’ll be a Man, my son!

(*love this poem.. =D)

Breakthrough

Today was very tired... but I'm so honored that I help God to do something very meanigful for Him.. I lead a close friend to pray!!! I'm so.. *emo*.. haiz..

Things can be tough in life.. but if we're willing to hold on to Him.. even the mountains can be moved.. faith can be as small mustard seed, but it can be big enough to move a mountain.. I love the prayer that Mr. Andrew Chan said on Friday.. nearly make me cry.. He said something like: Lord, help us trust in you.. help us to put our faith in you.. etc.. but it was really indeed a touching prayer..

Today Taekwondo was very tired.. then I straight away went to tuition ler.. so hectic.. got to sleep soon.. tomorrow still got "ying bi" competition... lol.. Good luck to me..!! hehe.. bluek...

Pray..

Ms. Chai wants to see all the Senior AJKs today but end up she disappeared into thin air.. Oh well..


I felt so much better after going to ISCF.. I sang my heart out for God.. I'm actually release everything out through singing.. (Jesus rocks!!) then after that I counsel a friend of mine.. Hope she gets better.. ^^ I'm ok today.. hehe.. finally ISCF's newsletter is OFFICIALLY out.. =D BIG thanks to Karen and Si En.. love it so much..

I know I have been really hectic recently and I'm sorry if I acted a bit cold towards anyone.. Sorry.. I don't mean to do that.. but I can't hep it.. Really sorry especially when I showed sour face to my junior prefects.. lol.. and get emotional when they didn't perform well.. haiz.. sorry..

By the way, everyone was like.. so mad.. cause Ms. Chai really wants to scold us.. All I tell our Ass. Head Prefect is.. Pray.. cause praying is very powerful.. It can change a lot of things... and I'm sure that if we pray, Ms. Chai won't want see us and even scold us.. I'm pretty sure about that.. *cause we're the innocent ones..* x.x

Finally.. ^^

Yipee.. finally... can blogging.. ^^

Today was very hectic.. I cried in the afternoon.. then later fall asleep till 5:30.. then quickly wash my hair and went for tuition.. Guess what? I skip my dinner.. miraculously, I didn't get gastric.. (ok, I shouldn't joke with my health.. sorry..) It's just that I'm too full cause I only took my lunch at 3 o'clock..

I joined the Spelling Bee's competition today and me and Karen was kicked out in first round.. It was fun with Kim Chern around.. haha.. Aaron Chia is the champion.. yeah!! Long live 5S5!!

Got to go now... lotsa things to finish gok... overall today... very tired and i'm glad I'm still hanging on.. ^^ Yeah!!