Feel sad today in school. Barely talk to anyone in class and don't feel like talking too. P.A. paper was given back today. I got 55%. Was very disappointed to be honest. Was aiming for an A. I had full confidence in my P.A. and I thought I can get the award for the best subject in P.A. But I was wrong and crushed when I see my results are like this. I almost cried but I hold on my tears. Don't wanna get teased again.
I was very angry at one of my classmates who cheated in the exam. But I said nothing in front her. I just kept quiet but I do realised I have distanced myself away from her lately. She got the answers from our class top student. She cheated almost on every subject. I wonder God see it or not. Why God didn't wanna do anything on her? This question has been swirling in my mind all the time as long as when the test papers are given back. What about others who are righteous in the exam? Shouldn't we get what deserve for working hard?
I was quite devastated lately because of this cheating issue. It's not fair. All I can think about is this. But what can I do? I was praying when nobody realised it. I was asking God can He let me give up in STPM? I'm so demotivated. But God said: No.So long as I didn't give up, so do you.
I secretly believe that STPM I'm going to do better. Yes I will. Lighting this hope is crucial to get me back on my feet to fight a fair fight once more. Last chance. If she is going to cheat again, I don't know what else I can say. Let God handle I guess, will be the wisest choice. I trust you, Lord.
I was happy to see my parents waiting for me when I finish school. I love my home and my family. Seeing them makes me feel warm and I can forget all the other unhappiness that is currently happening.
Glad that today is just a day. :)
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