Moody.. Cloudy..

Well, today wasn't really a good day.. Sighing... I was supposed to be free today but due to certain reasons.. I have to go to work today.. After coming back, I was scolded terribly... I was very frustrated but still, I kept silent.. Usually when parents scolded you, we're (usually) not encouraged to "scold back".. I guess that means rude.. Sighing.. She was VERY EXTREMELY mad because I have to go to work every day (almost..) when the others said : "I don't have transport", "I can't go", "I got things to do" etc. and many reasons.. Some fled to S'pore, Some go for camp, and some go to Damai.. Lol... Haiz.. I wasn't complaining lah.. Just.. want to pour things out.. (Sorry for my rudeness...) Mum said that I am kepo.. because everyone is not doing it and I am the one doing the rest.. If people cannot do it, I always offer to go.. Ya, I agree.. I'm really like a fool.. or stupid.. But it's my decision to join this business thingy.. and of course, I have to be responsible about it... I can't just let it be.. Something terrible happened.. but I won't mention it.. I know I'm selfish and mean.. but.. I just hope that she will understand what I want.. Luckily Dad was on my side all this while.. (thanks Daddy..) Man, teenage life can really pass that fast.. I just want my teenage life to be full of experience and fun.. at least I learn something this holiday.. If I do not decide what I want, then I guess I won't have the chance to try it when I grow up.. You only got one life.. so why not make it as meaningful as possible? (I'm not trying to defend myself lah..) Sorry.. I know no matter what I said, "you" will still be mad at me.. I hope you understand me.. I guess the most I can do to pay back is to score straight A1s in SPM huh? It's ok if you doubt about me.. Maybe it's time to live for myself and to find what I want instead of being the good girl you always wanted me to be.. I'm not that type of person.. I'm just normal.. please don't ask too much from me, k? please...