A day near the end of the year..

So.. Today is a Tuesday..Went to school yesterday and today to work at kopearasi. I went to my workplace gathering at KFC. Bought wedges for mummy and daddy. :) Sunday brought hubby to church and after that went to the Spring to watch Gulliver's Travel with him and Sharon and Ronald.. :)there goes what happened around this weekend..

Tomorrow will be going back to work ler.. Last few days before I say goodbye to my dearest Trinity Bookroom and headed to a new year 2011 and back to school.. Haven't completed a lot of homework.. :S Don't feel like going back to school at all.. I don't want to face my STPM.. I feel like escaping.. I wanna go somewhere else to live.. I don't want to face exams anymore ler.. :( Can I?

I really don't know why am I moody lately.. especially these few days.. AND especially today.. :(I had no idea at all.. I mad at my hubby that he spent more time to play game than to pei me.. I mad at him for not accepting me in the facebook request about our realtionship status.. :( All because that I'm small gas right? *Big Sigh* I wish he could spend more time with me to chat.. I dunno why.. I just felt unsafe without him at my side.. This is how much I have rely him all these while.. This is so torturing..

I really don't know how to go on for next year.. Every year end gives me a huge emotional turmoil.. I wish I had finished school now.. And get to chase my dreams.. I cried every night to sleep while talking on the phone with hubby.. I guess it's really anoying to hear people cry every night.. I told him all the time that I want to be alone but actually I wish he could just hug me tight in his arms and tell me everything's gonna be all right and everything's gonna turn out like what we want.. I need that so much.. I'm so timid and weak.. Everyone turns out to be so brave to welcome anything that's coming in their life but not me.. I'm so scared to accept and to lose at the same time.. I don't like changes.. That's me.. *sigh sigh sigh*

I babble a lot.. But this is the only place I can spilled out everything to the world.. My little cosy bloggie world.. :) I switched off my phone till tonight.. Cause don't feel like hearing from my hubby.. Sigh.. What am I supposed to do now? I feel so lonely.. Sigh.. I don't want my 2010 end up just like that eh.. T.T sob sob sob..

Bitterguard emotions

You know why it's called bitterguard emotions for my post today.. Cause I had a bad feeling and I really feel bitter.. Sadly to say that..

You know, it's been torturing me for a whole year.. This thought.. This insane unbelievable outrageous crazy abnormal whatsoever adjective that can describe this awfulness of thought.. It's been stucking in my head for almost 365 days liao..
T.T I feel like crying.. seriously.. I really wanna cry.. I think I'm crazy.. T.T

I open a new facebook account ler.. I had a new email address.. I have a dream that I wish to have my own shop when I grow up.. I want to open a gift shop and sell a lot of stuffs.. I wanna reach the stars which I have always wanted to reach..

I wish hubby is here.. I wish hubby is here at my side.. Cause I need his hug hug so that I will feel safe.. I miss him badly.. :( I wanna be with my hubby forever.. Is that permissible?? Can we get married earlier?? I can't live without him.. :( I felt insecure when I"m alone.. I felt scared.. :( when will this feeling go away?? :( this is so awful and so so.. BITTER.. :(

Holiday life..

Hi hi.. I'm back again, bloggie.. hehe.. Here's come my story-telling time about my holiday life..

Basically it's all about busy working.. hehe.. Latest news about me would be learning beading with my colleagues.. We had this beading class at One Jaya there.. And each lesson costs RM30.. I spent RM50 to buy the tools.. I borrow RM100 from my mummy dearest to pay for all this.. Lols.. I dunno how I spend my RM200 which I had just withdrawn not long ago.. Scary eh.. lols.. I'm such a spendthrift..

Hmm.. my sweet lovely hubby had gone to KL for family trip.. Miss him so badly.. My working place is currently having sale now.. And David has resigned to study pastorial in Sibu.. :) Caught a headache today.. Sob sob..

Oh ya.. Hubby promised that he is going to church with me for Christmas service on 26th December~!!! hehe.. hopefully God cares enough to answer my prayer.. I wanna be a soul winner for God.. and bring hubby to Christ.. ^^ hehe.. Lord Lord, may thy will be done.. ^^

Hmm.. Next year gonna resign my ISCF and Badminton club.. probably Karen and Kevin are going to kill me.. Sigh.. But I was left with no choice.. I need time to catch up my homework and I am a slow learner.. :( Sadly to say that I haven't touch much of my homework during the holiday.. :( Letters will be given to teacher once school reopen.. Sigh sigh.. I'm running out of time!!!!

Lord.. I'm here!! Woohoo~!! By the way, I deactivate my facebook account dy.. Plan to get myself a new email address.. ^^

A day in December

Today was blessed because I got an off day.. Which means I can stay at home relaxed a bit and can do my homework. I haven't start doing it yet for today though. So Long no blogging. Dunno why suddenly feel sleepy in front of computer here.

I woke up quite early this morning.. Ate breakfast, read newspapers and then take a shower. Then headed downstairs to use computer. Recently nothing much happened though. Yesterday was a public holiday. A lot of customers. Last friday meet up with old friends and spend a lot of fun time together. Had a lot of happy moments.

Can't wait for this coming Sunday though. Can meet up with my hubby ler. I bought some new year clothes last Saturday and it cost me RM70. Pretty expensive. But the cost for all things are raised up nowadays. So what to do??

Earning for a living. Not sure whether paying for my own clothing is the right decision is the right one or not.. But.. note to self: no regrets, sweetie.

All right. Enough for my craps and rubbish spilled for today. Till then.

I'm Miss Lonely..

Lonely~ I'm Miss Lonely~ I am nobody~ I"m on my own~ Lols.. really lonely now.. :(

Today is the last day of my Lower Six 2010. We had spring cleaning today and went back at 9.. I miss him terribly.. Can i cry??

He's busy with nhis assignment lately so we hardly got time to chat.. :( sob sob.. today went shopping with sharon and karen at One Jaya. Almost rain but luckily in the end no rain. So we get to swim in the afternoon.. :) However, it wasn't a happy day for me though.. Not as good as I thought.. I got mixed feelings now and feel like going to a corner and cry.. I haven't got a teddy bear yet.. :(

I'm lonely today and I feel like a bulb among my friends.. I'm the only odd one out without my hubby beside me.. :( Miss him badly.. I wonder tonight what time can we chat.. Though tomorrow is a holiday, I"m not looking forward to it at all..

Sad sad amy.. What should I do to make myself happy o? Chocolate? I guess only my hubby can meke me smile.. :( I'm so darn lonely..

Missing pieces..

Life is made up of puzzles.. Do you agree that? My dear sis pester me to update my blog few moments ago.. So that's why I'm here again to update about my life.. haha..

I miss my blog.. But lately I guess I've cultivating the habits of telling my life stories to my hubby.. So din really have the heart to put it up again in my blog.. haha.. hmm.. Life goes on as well.. Like usual..

Today is Monday.. We had the Excellence Award Ceremony in school.. Helped at the backstage with the prize giving.. Then we went out to have meal at Hartz Chicken... Was super duper full and still forced to eat dinner.. I think I can puasa tomorrow the whole day ler.. haha.. Luckily tomorrow I'm going swimming with my sisters.. Burn all the calories and fat accumulated in my body.. haha..

I got tons of holiday homework, projects and assignments to finish off.. haha.. But.. I'm working during the holiday.. earning money is not easy at all.. It makes me appreciate more on what I bought.. that's a good thing though.. Then I wun simply waste stuff.. hahaha.. Hmm.. Bought one black semi-dress which cost me RM75.. There's one eggy out there who claims that she has a nice taste and choose such a pretty dress for me.. hahaha.. So.. I'm going to match it with a colourful long necklace, white heels and red leggings.. I think I'll look hot.. haha..

Hmm.. This year gonna aim for dresses, jeans and coat.. haha.. It's time to change my style liao.. hehe.. Plan to cut my hair short.. Then perm my hair after STPM.. haha.. Dunno why today so high.. Keep laughing and singing.. lols..

Today I made a very cute hair scrunchy.. I'm so proud of myself that I'm so talented... *yeah right* haha.. I'm still considering should I sell it off or not.. Make some money also can.. hehe.. I'm so indulged with craftswork lately.. haha.. Hopefull I won't get too addicted till neglect my holiday work.. haha..

Something unhappy happened today also..We're so so innocent today.. Our zone "special" that nobody else sweep the zone except our class.. Our block is locked.. How does he expect us to go to our class and get broom to sweep? So.. Innocently.. We got demerits again.. lols..

Right now.. I miss him badly.. Almost a month not seeing him ler.. T.T can't wait for wednesday.. *muacks* lately he's my big big baby.. haha.. so cute and so adorable.. I wish I got time o hug him tight tight de.. haha.. MY darling teddy bear.. >.< sigh.. I miss him I miss him I miss him.. T.T

Can't wait for Christmas though.. teehee~

*yawning*

Haha.. Today was another usual day for Princess Amy.. haha.. (please let me feel a bit vain about myself for once in a while.. >.<) haha.. muacks..

Well, it's so good to be back in God's arms!!! woohoo~~~!!! haha.. Have a close relationship with God lately.. Raya break is fun for me and at the same time tiring but.. Meaningful!! hehe.. School reopen soon.. So reluctant to go back to shcool.. >.< My Lower Six left one and a half month liao.. Fast eh?? haha.. SO excited..

Hmm.. I've been working part time during this raya break.. earning some pocket money to make myself a new pair of glasses.. hehe.. with my dear cousin.. ^^ My phone spoilt liao.. My heart itchy itchy wanna change new one but hubby want change together with me so have to wait for him.. hahaha.. >.< oh gosh.. having period lately.. it's exhausting though.. but with God, I shall rejoice and not complain!!! hehe..

See this Princess so hyper de.. haha.. well.. *yawning* I wanna enjoy some more gok before my next year arrive.. My deadly year which decides my future.. teehee~~