I'm Miss Lonely..

Lonely~ I'm Miss Lonely~ I am nobody~ I"m on my own~ Lols.. really lonely now.. :(

Today is the last day of my Lower Six 2010. We had spring cleaning today and went back at 9.. I miss him terribly.. Can i cry??

He's busy with nhis assignment lately so we hardly got time to chat.. :( sob sob.. today went shopping with sharon and karen at One Jaya. Almost rain but luckily in the end no rain. So we get to swim in the afternoon.. :) However, it wasn't a happy day for me though.. Not as good as I thought.. I got mixed feelings now and feel like going to a corner and cry.. I haven't got a teddy bear yet.. :(

I'm lonely today and I feel like a bulb among my friends.. I'm the only odd one out without my hubby beside me.. :( Miss him badly.. I wonder tonight what time can we chat.. Though tomorrow is a holiday, I"m not looking forward to it at all..

Sad sad amy.. What should I do to make myself happy o? Chocolate? I guess only my hubby can meke me smile.. :( I'm so darn lonely..

Missing pieces..

Life is made up of puzzles.. Do you agree that? My dear sis pester me to update my blog few moments ago.. So that's why I'm here again to update about my life.. haha..

I miss my blog.. But lately I guess I've cultivating the habits of telling my life stories to my hubby.. So din really have the heart to put it up again in my blog.. haha.. hmm.. Life goes on as well.. Like usual..

Today is Monday.. We had the Excellence Award Ceremony in school.. Helped at the backstage with the prize giving.. Then we went out to have meal at Hartz Chicken... Was super duper full and still forced to eat dinner.. I think I can puasa tomorrow the whole day ler.. haha.. Luckily tomorrow I'm going swimming with my sisters.. Burn all the calories and fat accumulated in my body.. haha..

I got tons of holiday homework, projects and assignments to finish off.. haha.. But.. I'm working during the holiday.. earning money is not easy at all.. It makes me appreciate more on what I bought.. that's a good thing though.. Then I wun simply waste stuff.. hahaha.. Hmm.. Bought one black semi-dress which cost me RM75.. There's one eggy out there who claims that she has a nice taste and choose such a pretty dress for me.. hahaha.. So.. I'm going to match it with a colourful long necklace, white heels and red leggings.. I think I'll look hot.. haha..

Hmm.. This year gonna aim for dresses, jeans and coat.. haha.. It's time to change my style liao.. hehe.. Plan to cut my hair short.. Then perm my hair after STPM.. haha.. Dunno why today so high.. Keep laughing and singing.. lols..

Today I made a very cute hair scrunchy.. I'm so proud of myself that I'm so talented... *yeah right* haha.. I'm still considering should I sell it off or not.. Make some money also can.. hehe.. I'm so indulged with craftswork lately.. haha.. Hopefull I won't get too addicted till neglect my holiday work.. haha..

Something unhappy happened today also..We're so so innocent today.. Our zone "special" that nobody else sweep the zone except our class.. Our block is locked.. How does he expect us to go to our class and get broom to sweep? So.. Innocently.. We got demerits again.. lols..

Right now.. I miss him badly.. Almost a month not seeing him ler.. T.T can't wait for wednesday.. *muacks* lately he's my big big baby.. haha.. so cute and so adorable.. I wish I got time o hug him tight tight de.. haha.. MY darling teddy bear.. >.< sigh.. I miss him I miss him I miss him.. T.T

Can't wait for Christmas though.. teehee~

*yawning*

Haha.. Today was another usual day for Princess Amy.. haha.. (please let me feel a bit vain about myself for once in a while.. >.<) haha.. muacks..

Well, it's so good to be back in God's arms!!! woohoo~~~!!! haha.. Have a close relationship with God lately.. Raya break is fun for me and at the same time tiring but.. Meaningful!! hehe.. School reopen soon.. So reluctant to go back to shcool.. >.< My Lower Six left one and a half month liao.. Fast eh?? haha.. SO excited..

Hmm.. I've been working part time during this raya break.. earning some pocket money to make myself a new pair of glasses.. hehe.. with my dear cousin.. ^^ My phone spoilt liao.. My heart itchy itchy wanna change new one but hubby want change together with me so have to wait for him.. hahaha.. >.< oh gosh.. having period lately.. it's exhausting though.. but with God, I shall rejoice and not complain!!! hehe..

See this Princess so hyper de.. haha.. well.. *yawning* I wanna enjoy some more gok before my next year arrive.. My deadly year which decides my future.. teehee~~

Whatever turmoil..

Sigh.. Holiday is here.. But still.. Everyday seems dragging and I don't have the mood to enjoy.. Can't seem to have the holiday mood I used to long for when I was young.. :) I Basically spent my holiday earning money by doing part-time job.. :) I find myself hard to laugh.. but can smile only.. Well, only me can define that smile is a fake one.. Just.. you know.. Don't want anyone else to worry.. :) Except God.. He knows what my heart is thinking.. And only Him, can know what's wrong with me.. :)

Raya is coming.. :) This afternoon I'm going to work again.. Almost these days I didn't really study.. Don't know how to face my exam this year end though.. This holiday seems so packed.. Sigh.. Busy with St. John and my part-time job.. And also my studies of course.. :)

Lately I've been working till very late.. Sleep till 7 or 8 something the next day.. Sometimes I get to catch up with hubby before he went to college.. Other time, I'll blog or eat or study or cook.. :) Mum need to attend her seminar so I'm the one taking over her responsibilities at home.. :)

Life as usual, as I have always said to anyone who asked me.. :) I need to figure out what's wrong with me and what's that little thing bugging my soul and my heart that makes me have serious emotional turmoil.. Lols..

Lately have been going to a camp with my two besties.. And had a fun St. John Night with the rest of the committees.. :) those still manage to put a sincere smile on my face.. But.. now i need to figure out, again, how to put that sincere smile back on my face again.. :)

The Silent Bell

Today is a Sunday.. However.. It was not a happy day as it turns out.. I'm feeling stressed out, alone, sad and all the negative feelings I had now.. Aiks.. Tears almost dropping now..

I went to church this morning with Andrea.. But my heart wasn't there in God's temple. I was, however, in my heart praying that the service would end earlier. What is this lousy attitude I have today? Aren't I suppose to rejoice and be happy while having fellowship on Sunday with others? What's wrong with my heart?

Looking at the picture of me and him and receive a sudden msg from him makes me really cry.. I was really frustrated whenever he replied late, thinking that he might no heart to chat anymore.. And whenever he's doing something else he doesn't like to let me know.. Just because he scared I'd be upset. *sigh* Everything seems wrong today and I felt so lost now.. I need God. Urgent. I really stray away from God a lot ler..

Everything seems so silent whenever I'm alone.. Till it really creeps into the bone that made me shivered. It's like a bell not functioning in the virtual reality of mine. Creepy. I did asked myself all the time. That what is the thing that made me change so much when facing all the things around me.. It's like I'm losing passion for life, God, friends, love, family and everything I do that once I used to really love enjoying to do so.. *sigh* What is that thing that dragged me to feel like this? How come I seem that I don't have any choices to be happy other than to be sad? Why? Why is it so hard to let me get up again after being beaten down? Why?

My Recent Life..

My first anniversary with my lovely hubby had just passed.. ^^ really really happy.. We went to Kuching Fest to celebrate it.. And he was being a very top gentleman by chia-ing me to eat and play that Sunday night.. *muackss* and he was being a bit silly to play to game and insisted to get a soft toy for me.. hehe.. >.< but I end up got a yellow Hamtaro.. Gosh.. Like it so much.. so cute and it's a gift from hubby.. T.T

We spend most of the time together in the garden on that Sunday night though.. We plan to watch fireworks but it didn't turn up until 10.. But both of us went home at 9.. a bit sad sad.. He was having flu yesterday.. Xin teng xin teng.. T.T

Hmm.. August is here.. Means lotsa things will be going on too.. Last Saturday we're asked to wear traditional clothes to school.. So wore my baju kurung.. Lols.. Cause me a lot of incovenience though.. And this coming Saturday is our school jogathon.. At night will be our choir performance for OTA dinner.. Hmm.. What else.. Lotsa homework recently.. Rush till wanna pengsan ler.. haha.. This coming thursday is Economy test and Friday is Maths test.. Thursday morning need to ponteng class for the morning to practise choir.. sob sob..

I'm quite broke now with my RM20 pocket money left now.. haha.. But trust God.. God will provide.. ^^ I'm the creative ministry team in ISCF now.. so happy.. Cause din hold huge post anymore.. hehe.. senang a bit.. >.<

Tonight can't wait for hubby ler.. need to rest earlier cause tomorrow got driving lesson.. Nights, bloggie.. ^^

Feeling-less

Today is such a beautiful Saturday morning.. July has almost come to an end ler.. Time flies, that's for sure.. Right now.. I'm sitting in front of my dear bloggie missing someone.. Miss him badly..

I got St. John today.. Was elected as Publicity.. I have Alex and Jing Yee to be my helpers.. Our new committee was in a mess because we're quite lost and dunno what to do.. We have First Aid duty on Jogathon day.. Latest project is appreciation dinner for the Upper Six members.. on 28th August.. Sigh.. Feels so emotionless right now..

I didn't went for Badminton Club noticeboard decoration yesterday.. Din see Sharika and Brian around.. Din know where are they and I'm also in a rush to go home with Yu Huan.. Lols.. Tiring.. Afternoon got driving lesson..

Next week is my first anniversary with hubby ler.. Very happy.. and also looking forward to celebrate it together.. =) I realised no matter how stubborn, naughty he is, I love him like mad.. Really a lady in love huh? haha..